A hug please?

[~Grace~]

I feel so alone with this right now
Thank you xx

[tifflehan]

(((HUGZ)))

[SORE]

[CrazyAboutMonkeys]

"hugs"

[ferretmonster]

oh hunny, wish i could give u a big huggley squeeze in real life. do you want to talk about it?

[Pops.]

*squishes you* <3

[~Grace~]

Thank you so much, thank you xxxx

[Mandimoo]

*dons protective 'space-man' gear* *gives you a hug* *sneezes so hard i get blown all the way back to wales*

*wipes my helmet clean* *squeak squeak* ahhh now i can seeee!

[Busby]

*holds close and squeezes tight* xx

[GreyWolf]

<hugs>

[~Grace~]

Thank you for the hugs, they are very much needed right now xx

Last night I was told by the dcotor treating me in a and e that if I carried on the way I am, that I could lose my leg. I dont know whether to believe him or not, but I he has no reason to lie.

Things have been gradually getting worse and I dont know how to get out of it...that mindset that whatever I do to myself..its never enough....I just need more and more and its escalating the whole time and it scares me and i want out from it, but I cant pull myself away. Im told by the crisis team to try and stay positive and I do try...but sometimes if theres no positivity in your life its hard to stay positive..im seeing the link worker which they want me to do..

Its just that when you hear 'theres nothing more i can do' and no matter how hard the docs at a and e and at my surgery ask and fight for me to be referred to the cmht, they wont take me on...it just feels that theres no hope...if noone can help and theres nothing more anyone can do...

and it got to me last night. My doc was worried about me and my frame of mind and referred me to the crisis team who rang me at home and we talked..then i had to go to hospital for my leg..came home ...Im not proud, I lied to my husband so i could get pills, and i tried last night...but after years of abusing these pills my body still wouldnt accept them and now I dont know how to feel

Sorry, this is such a crap post

[Mandimoo]

aaaaaah rowie, what will we do with you eh? can you leave the leg alone even if it means harming elsewhere? damage limitation?

[Rain Keeper]

Ruffles your tassles.

((((((((((((((((((Rowie)))))))))))))))))))


Rainy

[Pops.]

Thinking of you <3

[pea soup]

please be careful with the leg...I agree with damage limitation.

I love you soooo much!!
*snuggles as long as the miles are between us*

[Pops.]

How are you doing now Rowie?

[~Grace~]

Thank you all for your replies/advice and hugs xx

Im bouncing from wanting to damage myself so badly to not wanting to get out of bed and face the world. Life isnt good and I feel so lonely because i just cant share my troubles with T, he has his own stuff to deal with because of me. I guess no matter how bad it is, my harming is kind of saving my life right now....god that sounds dramatic...i dont know any more..I dont know

[dollpart]

*Huge hug*

How are you? You can always talk to me. If the harming is keeping you alive, then it is. Nothing dramatic about saying it... Would T be able to help at all? I know your stuff probably effects him too, deeply, but wouldn't he rather be able to support you than now? Idk, sorry if I'm speaking out of place.

Sending love.

[Mandimoo]

you shouldn't have your 'own' problems, you are married you should share everything, if one has a problem you both have, you should be sharing - maybe you can help T with his issues the same way he could help with yours. Hows the infection?

[dollpart]

*more hugs*