Dissociated Day

[Drake]

I recently moved into an apartment with three girls who are around the same age as me. We are getting along pretty well. I would be too afraid to live with other boys because of my sexual harassment/bullying/assault expriences. Last night they had boys over without telling me they were inviting anyone over. They were all drinking alcohol. The boys were laughing and talking and their voices scared me alot. I hid in my room and had a panic attack and cried alot. I had a nightmare when I went to sleep and woke up hypervigilant and was dissociated alot today and had to keep reminding myself of where I was and what day it was. It has not been going well today. I've been a mess. Thank you for reading. Sorry if this posts twice as my computer is having issues.

[troubleshooter]

*hugs* It's okay to be scared sometimes. But are you friends with the girls you live with? If they're nice maybe they can introduce you to their boyfriends/male friends sometimes if they're nice and you can see that not all other boys will hurt you. Maybe just baby steps at first but you'll be okay. *hugs more* Just remember that sometimes scary things happen but that doesn't mean everything will fall apart. You're going to be ok.