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Contains sexual abuse - i think i was sexually abused?
I am 18 years old now. ohkay i need help. ive been trying to figure this out for a while. So since i was little i remember humping things, i remember tring to do sexual things to myself and playing "doctor" with other people when i was like 9ish. i was told from my mom that she caught my older cousin kissing me one day, i dont remember this AT ALL. i just remember her never letting me and him alone together ever. Ever since those young years i always get this "guilt" feeling like when i have sex with my boyfriend i have to stop because i get this feeling. but i had that feeling even when i humped things when i was little. and about 3 years ago i fell asleep in my brothers bed and i woke up to him touching my butt so i moved alittle to the side and he started touching my butt again and then after a couple minutes he stopped, i just acted like i was sleeping so idk if he was or not. i just i want this feeling to go away and idk why i get it, but its an occasional feeling. any response is helpful. thank you.
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