Reviews Requested- Contains upsetting material - just some of my feelings... doesn't really match as a poem, but it's kind of poetic... :/

[Kelly_Lucile]

At first we were just friends, supporters of a common pain
We knew we had to be careful to keep it just that simple
We tried to stick to small talk, but in the end it was all the same
The feelings that bloomed were obviously trivial

I listened to you talk about her
I felt the pain in your words
I was jealous from the start for sure
Was this a blessing or a curse?

You listened to me cry about the way he didn't seem to love me anymore
You hurt inside every time his name was said, but you listened all the same
How could such and simple thing leave us both so torn?
How could we so quickly have forgotten the rules to this game?

When we met in person we knew our desires, but we meant to hold back
"Just a simple kiss?" i asked and "maybe." was the response
When you leaned in for it a spark flew and our lives were thrown off track
I lied to my parents and that night we made a beautiful bond

No we didn't go very far and few blowjobs were about it
It was the kiss and the hugs and the soft sweet voice that won me over
The way you cared about what I wanted and the way our personalities fit
Its a shame it hadn't happened sooner, because you'd make a perfect lover

Every moment I think about us and how we'll never be
I think about how it could have been
I think about the way we are alike and how we share dreams
We both know it is forbidden and how you're so much older than me

We both wonder 'Why does love have to be so cruel?"
While we're apart we have to believe that fate will someday have a heart
Maybe one day we will both be free when I am through with school
Please for now let it be, because I am afraid our passion will restart

[Louise]

Really good, it is powerful - thank you for sharing it with us.

[Tig]

A beautiful poem - very emotive. As Louise said, thank you for sharing. I hope you are okay? x

[Kelly_Lucile]

thanks :) ... i'm really confused right now, about a lot of things, but i know i can make it through, i just have to stay strong and say no to my urges when i'm feeling down

[Kelly_Lucile]

my boyfriend and I just broke up on Wednesday night...I don't think this pain will ever go away.

I loved you more than anything else on Earth.
I gave you my soul when I gave you my heart and my love.
I gave you my first kiss, my first grope, my first sex... all of my firsts are yours.
I thought it would last forever, but you drifted away.

It was gradual over almost a year as you cut yourself off.
Your emotion wasn't in the hugs anymore.
The kisses were shorter, if I could even call them kisses anymore.
The conversations were few and awkward.

I told you I loved you, and you responded "I know" or "you too"
I tried to get closer, you put more distance between us.
I understood your hard work, I understood your need to be independent.
But eventually I got the jist that the break wasn't so you could buy us a house.
This break was to get me to leave you alone.

Seven hundred and fifty miles.
twelve hours to drive.
Every night I dream't of you with a smile,
But eventually I had to lie to myself to make my happiness thrive.

I gave you a way out.
I told you someone asked me on a date, but I wanted your opinion.
We were taking a break, but I hoped you would shout.
"NO, Don't Go! You're My True Love!!!"
Instead I got, "Please go for it, this isn't working out."

Our relationship almost lasted two years.
Two more months and we'd have made it to that oh so special checkpoint.
Instead I fall asleep at night, with nothing but tears.
How do you expect me to live like this, dreaming of a future without you is pointless.

I want you back, but I guess I did something wrong.
Was I clingy, distracting, or just bad in bed?
You once made me a promise, that you'd fight for me against all adversity.
Now I know that your promises mean nothing, and I was a fool to count on them.

I reminded you of that promise, when the distance was getting to you.
You told me you had changed and you were a realist.
You used to tell me you fell asleep at night imagining me wrapped in your arms.
But later I asked you about it, and you said it was childish.

Where did we go wrong?
When did our song's unison turn into a train-wreck of mismatching notes?
I wanted you to be happy, but why can't I be happy too?
Why did you change on me?
Why did our loving bond stop being strong?

[Kelly_Lucile]

Flurries of unnerving events rage toward my place in time, Bound for my conscience like a pack of ravaging wolves,
Buried deep within me are endless ideas: Deep and sublime.
I wonder “What if…,” but a voice interjects “You will no longer fit the mold.”

As day turns to night I cringe at another episode of insomnia.
Tears fill my eyes as painful memories fill my mind and I can’t push them away.
There is no happy substitute for the Devil’s sneaky thoughts.
They invade my heart, soul and entire being. They plead, “Come and play.”

The light is gone from within; just an ember left dwindling, lost and afraid.
It has hope, but no help; it has love, but no lover to share it with.
The stress of the unknown knocks her down, but, “Be strong,” her mother once said.
One has to wonder if that girl’s mother knew from experience, had she too waited for love’s true kiss.