I need 'good vibes' for next week, and just people to 'be with' me now, please.
I have a situation coming up next week, something that I've fought for, but now am not even sure if it's the right path. I'm doing my best to 'be with' the not knowing.
But anyway, I am going for it, even though I feel utterly unwell and what I really need is a good rest, not a highly pressured and stressful experience...
I just want to curl up in a ball and hide away.
I just want to stand in the middle of a room and scream "I can't do this!" and opt out of the whole thing.
I look like the truth of what I'm feeling - that I've not slept or relaxed properly for months. And somehow I have to transform myself into something more presentable for next week.
I just feel so low and tearful and frustrated and exhausted. Utterly exhausted.
I feel so insecure.
Oh God, please someone catch me, I need to fall a little.
good luck for your thing next week, im sure it will all go ok :) do you have to do it? or could someone else do it instead, or could you delay it or anything?
try and get some sleep if you can before it, could you try sleeping pills if you cant sleep well at the moment? i use them and they work really well and it will make you feel a lot less tired and a load better and then you may be able to deal with the rest of the stuff a bit better.
do you have anyone you can talk to? a friend or family member? we're all here too if you need to talk
*hugs* stay strong, you'll get through it
sorry dont have much more advice but im always here if you want to talk about anything
xx
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No matter how low insecure and frazzled you are feeling, remember to keep moving forward even if it's just tiny steps, they will make you feel small goals in gaining control of your destiny. You are not alone there are people right now wishing great things and happiness for you, take a breath and let others carry your burdens,let your mind rest and the rest will follow,never be afraid to pump the breaks, only you know what you need deep down. Big comforting hugs and support from one who knows. Good luck you will get there ;o)
rj, no, no one else can do this for me. And it cannot be delayed. I've already been waiting 2 months for it as it is, though not due to me.
I have sleeping tablets, but am instructed only to take them rarely, when things are really too much, I also tend to paranoia the next day after them. But I have started taking Passiflora again, which is helping a little.
You can do this, Katie. As scary as it feels now, and as much as everything over the last couple of months has been tumbling towards this you have the strength within to get through it - even if that is hard to see right now.
We will be with you every step of the way, and if it helps, you can always text or email me anytime you need to.
Be gentle with yourself. Try some self soothing things and allow yourself the time and space to process it all.
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
Last night I felt so insecure and vulnerable that it took me some time to get to sleep. I'm worried about going to bed tonight, even though I 'know' it's safe. Lots of feelings activated, so many.
*hugs* dont have many words tonight,
stay strong youll get through it
one thing i find helps me sleep easier is texting a friend until i fall asleep if that helps you at all?
xx
I understand how stress and anxiety can make the mind race and everything feel much more tense - which rarely ever leads to a good nights sleep.
I wonder if there are things you can do that are self-soothing, calm breathing, hugging a plushie, visualisation or having a long bath - Things that are calming but less focused on just sleep so that you can get to the sleepy dopey stage more immediately before actual sleep?
Sorry - that didnt make any sense....
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
