what to do when your head is just so...screwed

cakey · 19-07-2011, 11:42 PM

i don't really know where to start, everything is just going bad. my head feels like it is going to explode, not in the jokey way but actually physicqally explode...like my brain is so full of everything that its going to push out the sides of my head or something. i don't even have room to think proper thoughts. everything is just running together in one big jumble, and i can't make sense of it at all. i am having flashbacks and stuff like noones buissiness, and i can't make it stop. i don't know what to do. i want to do harm, but i can't think straight enough to even think that out properly. the voices are shouting at me, like so loud, but i don't understand what they are saying, its like an out of tune radio, its all i don't know>< i have diazapam 5mg, and it has kept me kinda straight for the weekend, but like...its not helping tonight. i am going to take my night meds soon, but i don't think i can sleep. i know noone is going to read this, cos its just wall text, but i can't think straigt enough to type. i can't even phone the crisis team, when i last phoned them they never bothered to call back. i guess i just need someone to hear me and tell me i am not going psycho crazy or something><

strawberry11 · 20-07-2011, 04:16 AM

hang in there...I'd try to get some rest tonight and call someone in the morning even if its just someone you are close with and tell them you are having a hard time and go from there. As my doctor always says "This too shall pass" as hard as it is to hear that....it will. Not to say it will be easy but it will get better. Hang in there *hugs*

KarynEclipsed · 20-07-2011, 04:17 AM

Hey there I don't really have any advice just wanted you to know that someone cares..and I don't think you're going crazy.

Snow White. · 20-07-2011, 01:05 PM

Kerry, I feel the exact same way right now, and I know it is so overwhelming and stressful. Obviously being in the same situation I don't have too much advice, but please don't give up and try everything (safe) you can that usually gives you a bit of relief and don't feel guilt about taking some time for yourself.

Sometimes it helps me to type everything out, at least just to keep the thoughts somewhere in a hope they won't have to keep repeating and filling up my head. If typing this has helped at all, maybe it's worth it. And I agree calling the crisis team when you can is a good idea, hopefully they'll be more responsive this time around.

Thinking of you, sending you love xx
Aimee

akita · 20-07-2011, 01:21 PM

Kerry, I've felt the same way for weeks. I mean that my head won't shut up and stop with all the thoughts in it. I agree that calling the crisis team is a good idea and if they don't call back then you keep calling them until they listen and do something to help you. I don't know if you would go but do you need to be in hospital for a bit? Sorry, if I've said the wrong things.

Love you

xx