with the parents gone and nothing to look forward to, why should i go on.. i mean honestly whats the point.. ihave nothing to look forward to, i know everyone says your mom wants to see you grow up but no whos gunna walk me down the isle who is going to be my childs grandparents they wont ever know my parents.. its not fair ending it all has more positives than negatives to me..
Your parents will always be with you. No matter how it feels. They will be with you as you walk down the isle. As you find out you are going to have your own little baby. They will be there to celebrate the joy of your little ones birth, Their first smile, first birthday, just like they were there for all of yoiur firsts. Maybe not in person, but they will always be alive in you.
From Nymph to Dragonfly, I know my place.
Call me Bee. =) Like it or Lump it.
‘Cause the passion and pain are gonna keep you alive someday
Saving grace. I can relate to how you're feeling about school and disappointing everyone. Can you get away from your abuser? Or do you mean you see him in your mind? You hurt yourself because of the stress and depression sweetie. Please don't be too hard on yourself. You have a lot going on. Forgive yourself. It's ok. Don't give up on life. You deserve to live and be happy. There is still hope. Hugs.
I am really struggling with anxiety and depression still. Still no job or prospects for my future except for things I can't do. I feel like a failure, and suicidal thoughts are swimming in my head but I'm not going there. I hate this. What is out there for me? What is there that I can be successful at and not give up on? I feel like such a loser.
I've been thinking about suicide for ages now, and today I was thinking, everydays just the same, I don't have one thing to look forward to at all. I'm constantly in everyones way, and if I counted up the time I spend depressed it would outweigh any happiness. There's no point..
Hey, everyone
I feel really, really close to doing it. Closer than I have felt in three years, so it's kind of difficult to deal with it again. I feel like this world is just... pointless. I feel like I have no reason living anymore, I am just done with this world. Also my depression is back again and worse than it has been in a long, long time. There are currently three guests, my bests friends, at my place, and my birthday is tomorrow. Still, the only thing I can think about is locking myself away and crying or killing myself.
I hope Lyn and all of you can find some hope. Please hold on. Things do change. It's the one thing you can count on. Change. Please hold on. Ask for help. Don't go it alone. I know how you all are feeling. I'm having a realllly hard time myself right now and I can hardly stand myself but please hold on. There has to be a better day. And there is always a reason to live... even if it's just that person who would be in pain if you died.
