Say here what you can't say to someone/Get something off your chest-new rules post 1

[xx_hope_xx]

I hate the silence, because my thoughts scare me.

[Silver Phoenix]

Do you not think of others? No you don't because you are selfish. Even they say it and they know you soo much better than I do. It might seem trivial but you know I'm doing washing yet have decided to clean the airing cupboard. Where the hell am I meant to hang the clothes to dry? Why couldn't you wait one more day? GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR you're so fecking annoying.

[MunchBox]

Please don't leave me.

[Ardea]

i dreamed about you last night. you're in my dreams every single night - but this dream was actually about you. i was trying to talk to you. trying to find some sing that this all wasn't just some bored game of yours. that part of you cared and still somewhat cared what happened to me in the way i clearly still cared what happened to you. you listened, annoyed. the dream was so real. i was crying. you told me that yes, you fell out of love. so indifferent. i don't think you were ever in love. it killed me. you sat there watching me cry. then started telling me how worthless i was. that why would you have wanted to be with me? it was so real... so hurtful... so true... the things you've already said without words.

IT'S NOT FUCKING FAIR.

you left without hardly a backwards glance expect to watch my pain as though it were a show. you moved on and i'm stuck here. i got a new boyfriend. yes. took me 7 month - not 7 DAYS! and you're still haunting me ever single day. i'm still here on my bed looking for you on here, facebook, twitter, youtube - anywhere for some sign of you. but you've gone. there is nothing i can do at all! i'm stuck here in the past. more insecure than ever before. so hurt - more than you can guess. crying since i woke up. probably crying while i was asleep. i need you so much. you're not dead - you just don't care.

i am not safe.
i am losing it.
i am triggered.
i am ALONE.
i am fucked up.
i am used.
i am pushed down.
i am hurting.
i still want to do it.
i still love you.
i still care.
i still want you to be happy.
i can't take it.
i can't do this anymore.
i can't live pretending nothing happened.
i can't wake up each day and put on a smile.
i can't eat away all my fears.
i feel unstable.
i feel scared.
i feel so alone.
i feel used.
i feel on the edge
i feel like no one will ever notice anyway.
i feel like if i don't do something it will all blow up worse than ever.

you won't ever help me.
you made everything 100 times better, then 500 times worse.
you fucked me up worse than ever.
you never fucking cared.
you are the most ruthless self-involved asshole i have ever seen in my life.
you went out and hurt me for some bored enjoyment.

i hope you enjoyed fucking me over in ever sense of the word.
i hope you realized you took away pretty much everything i had left.
i hope this pain will stop.

[I am a cat]

Oh shit, what have I done? Im scared.

please take me on next tues please dont give me any bullshit about 2 patient care systems... please help me i dont want to do this nemore

[Ardea]

two more days of work. then i have a month off. then i can cut as much as i want. so much. no one who i'll be around will care. there's no fucking therapy to stop me.

[Ardea]

i tell you i'm triggered and feeling like i want to cut.

you tell me it's my choice and will have no effect on you.

just what every girl who feel alone and used and stupid wants to hear: that she doesn't matter.

nice fucking job boyfriend.

[~ Bittersweet Memories ~]

give yourself credit, you're doing well!! you just can't see it

[whirlpools]

I'm hurting so much. I always thought you'd love me unconditionally. I think I need a little time to myself for a while.

[no point]

i pretend to be ok but i'm not. i don't know how to cope. i don't know if i can cope. i feel like i have no other choice but to die. i'm sorry for all that i have caused. i'm sorry for not getting better. i'm sorry for worrying you. you don't have to worry about me anymore. i'll be ok. i really will.

[Cryptic.]

I miss you.

[Rainbow Colors]

If I was driving, It wouldn't have happened.

[xx_hope_xx]

She was afraid to eat one cookie. She thought it would make her fat. I see the signs of an ED. I know you can't handle this, so I will. I'll be the parent again. I'll fight with every fiber of my being to save her from this.

[Snow White.]

I just want to die tonight, that's all, I hate this. I hate this but I know it isn't real.

[Mademoiselle Lola.]

I wonder if he slightly likes me.I like him so damn much,I dream of him.God,I want to be near him so bad.

[Pops.]

I feel really sad. :(

[ASkatersDream...]

I've been waiting months for you and I to meet up and what do I know... without any problem at all she comes back and your meeting up...

I've been waiting months to see you! Yet it just seems you dont wanna see me and arrange a date with a click of your fingers to see this other girl who actually lives miles away...

[busybeedoofus]

I wish you could understand why i get so mad at you. I care about you and i know you care for me, but you are smothering me. I need space. Please don't force me to cut you out of my life

[MunchBox]

I hear what you do and it scares me.