I'm Sorry

Strawberry.Bananas · 30-04-2011, 01:55 PM

I'm sorry, I've not asked for support for a long time and I know I've not given much support either but I'm struggling so, so much, I just need somebody right now.

Things have been going so badly for me and I'm losing my ability to cope. I've been SI free for a few months now and I don't want to go back but I can't keep feeling like this. I've been crying pretty much constantly for 4 days now and it's not making me feel any better. I don't know why I feel like this which makes it all the harder to know what to do about it. Nobdoy wants to be around me whilst I'm like this and I don't want to be around anybody but I feel so lonely.

I feel so ugly. I'm fat and I'm spotty and I'm hairy. And there's nothing I can do about any of it. I've cut down what I'm eating massively but it doesn't seem to have made any difference and nobody takes me seriously when I ask for help.

I don't have a CPN anymore because she's just left and I'm waiting on a new one. Again. My AD's clearly aren't working but I'm not 'unsafe' as such yet. I just can't cope. I don't want to feel like this anymore. I want to be happy like I was last week. I don't know what to do.

Please somebody help me.

notherday · 30-04-2011, 02:30 PM

I'm feeling pretty low too. But I'm thinking of going for a long walk in the park. Spring is finally here. Leaves are coming out. It's not warm, but it isn't sleeting. Get some endorphines going and if your feeling out of shape, it may help feel better that your doing something about.

Strawberry.Bananas · 30-04-2011, 03:21 PM

Thanks for the reply, but I'm pretty much confined indoors at the moment. I have a severe wasp phobia so parks and stuff are pretty much hell for me...:(

notherday · 30-04-2011, 04:29 PM

Is there a shopping mall in your area?

Strawberry.Bananas · 30-04-2011, 08:48 PM

Not easy to get to, no. :(