Thank you everyone :)
[SundayGirl], I wish that I could help with this one, but the way that I recovered was triggered by the arrival of my current boyfriend into my life (*hears femenism falling off a cliff*).. When I felt horrible, I would think of him and say "well if he says I'm beautiful it must be true". I wish I could say that I did it on my own steam, but he carried me there (even though he may not have even realise he was doing it). Though I guess it doesn't matter how I got there, because the fact is that I did, and that's what matters.
Mainly, when I had urges or darker feelings, I would think of love. Love from him, the love from my parents, and from friends. And even in my lowest times it would lift my mood, and help me fight. For example, the last time I self harmed I was taken to the hospital by my best friend to get it seen to, and when I came home, and had to tell my mum - the look of complete heartbreak on her face made me stop. Every time I had the urge to hurt myself, I would think of her face the last time it happened, and I would stop. It really helped.
In both instances I found an initial reason to fight - for the ones I loved and those who loved me, and gradually managed to convince myself to fight for myself as well.
I'm sorry if that wasn't any help, I wish I could give better advice!
I am a failbear!
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