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I have never told anyone about what happened to me and so I don't feel like I can join in right now but I just wanted to say how proud and inspired I was by everyone on here. I promise I will come back and maybe one day I will be able to say it too.
It's only in the black of night you see the stars, and those stars will lead you home.
i know this is the "not my fault thread" not the mostly not my fault thread, but i really wanted to post that since i havent been able to say even that much for awhile.
Last edited by needle girl : 16-04-2011 at 10:47 PM.
Reason: forgot a "not" in there
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
"...that incremental suicide of turning your life into a dream, to make being awake as similar to sleep as possible. Drowsily, lazily, dry-mouth your way through the day's ceremonies, fumble your way back into the dew-bather you never really left, draped in brown, brown now all around, the haze!" - Russell Brand on drug addiction.
"Si ma êkh gûndo piyiamásko...ándo bírto barruno. Bírto, bírto barruno."
I'm on the verge of tears as I post this. Though part of that may be because I'm also listening to Iridescent at the same time as I do this, and it's at the part where they keep saying "Let it go, let it go".
(Why does this feel harder than the first time I did this?)
Sometimes the best way to hold onto something is to let it go. - Anon
"Do you feel cold and lost in desperation/You build up hope but failure's all you've known/
Remember all the sadness and frustration/And let it go/Let it go"
-Linkin Park, Iridescent
I don't know whether this was directed at me, somebody else, or just everybody, but if it was directed towards me in any way at all: thank you.
I just read through a lot of this thread, and it seems like you need some hugs, too, so... *big hugs* I'm sending many happy thoughts your way. I hope that whatever happened, whatever it is/was that is making you feel this way, will give you peace one day. You deserve it. Anyone on here deserves that, but this time, I hope you understand that I've directed it your way, and why I have done that. You are a great, amazing person.♥
Sometimes the best way to hold onto something is to let it go. - Anon
"Do you feel cold and lost in desperation/You build up hope but failure's all you've known/
Remember all the sadness and frustration/And let it go/Let it go"
-Linkin Park, Iridescent
*big, biiiig hug* Good job! It doesn't matter how long it took you to post it. All that matters is that you did. Be proud of that. Be proud that, even if just for a half of a split second, you really did know that, and you believed it. That's what truly matters.
I am very glad to see you put that, even though I'm positive that was hard for you to do.
(Thank you, by the way – again. I really do appreciate it, especially right now. :])
Sometimes the best way to hold onto something is to let it go. - Anon
"Do you feel cold and lost in desperation/You build up hope but failure's all you've known/
Remember all the sadness and frustration/And let it go/Let it go"
-Linkin Park, Iridescent
You're not the only one. *huuuuug* I honestly don't really believe it when I say it without the "all", but I feel that the more I don't put that in there, the sooner I'll be able to believe it. Y'know?
It's not my fault. It's not my fault. It's not my fault. It's not my fault.
(For some reason, this just seems to get harder and harder every day.. \: )
Sometimes the best way to hold onto something is to let it go. - Anon
"Do you feel cold and lost in desperation/You build up hope but failure's all you've known/
Remember all the sadness and frustration/And let it go/Let it go"
-Linkin Park, Iridescent
It's not my fault.
It's not my fault. I was 14.
It's not my fault. It doesn't matter how I dressed.
It's not my fault. It doesn't matter that I loved him.
It's not my fault. It doesn't matter that I still protect him.
It's not my fault. It doesn't matter that some people won't believe.
It's not my fault.
It's not my fault I'm still in love with "you".
It's not my fault I think this is love.
It's not my fault I'm so confused about who to think of when someone asks me who I miss or where the person I miss is.
It's not my fault you misled me.
It's not my fault you made me think I'm irrevocably in love with you.
It's not my fault you made me think I am in love with you.
It's not my fault that I'm not sure if I really love you or not, yet I cling onto the hope that I am even though it hurts me sooo much when I feel that I do.
It's not my fault. It's not my fault.
Sometimes the best way to hold onto something is to let it go. - Anon
"Do you feel cold and lost in desperation/You build up hope but failure's all you've known/
Remember all the sadness and frustration/And let it go/Let it go"
-Linkin Park, Iridescent
