I go through days where i can do only a few rituals then the next im completely crazy and do non stop rituals but it depends on how stressed i am and how bad my thoughts are.
my therapist. because i get really scared if i forget to do something, or don't do the exposures all the time, which means i'm not really enjoying much of anything, because i'm to busy trying to do the work properly. i don't really quite get it. cause i thought that thats what i'm supposed to be doing....
and then i'm now really frusterated with my mom cause shes getting angry with me because i'm really really scared of driving cause of one bad car ride and so i don't want to practice. and i know i'm supposed to. but not if i'm in tears and shaking and all that.....
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Things have to be symmetrical for me to feel comfortable, and I do things in eights. I've even organized my room into being symmetrical. But I have a randomly place closet, so it throws off the symmetry, and I'm always really anxious about it.
I haven't posted in a while, as I thought I was recovering, obviously not.
My OCD is SO SO bad at the moment, I have to have everything co-ordinated (colour and stuff), everything has to be clean (Me and the house), I worry about germs SO much. It is more complex then that but I won't go into it all.
Rebecca.
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thank you, Lily, for saving mummy's life*.
You are my one and only, you can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight, and you'll be alright.
Hey rebecca im sorry to here that your ocd is bad at the moment. Is there anything that you can to that will relax you for awhile for me i find that walking my dogs or listening to music helps. Have you anyone that you can talk to about how your ocd is
My OCD is getting worse and worse as I try to stray farther and farther from me ED. My tapping is so commonplace now, I forget that I am doing it. I'm driven insane when things are not presented in groups of 10, and I cannot fix it. I wonder why it's even the number 10 I'm obsessed with... there is literally no reason for it :/
Hang in there, everyone <3
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My OCD is bad now because I am stressed. I check locks and other things, wash my hands and try to stay away from what I think may have germs, and other rituals.
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I have OCD-at least my therapist thinks I do, so I am going with what she says considering she's the professional. However, my obsessions don't focus on orderliness, cleanliness etc. My OCD focuses on thoughts, images, etc that I get hung up on. They often reply over and over in my mind. Some of my compulsions include avoiding things that trigger my obsessions( never works) or mentally reassuring myself (which also never works). I am working my way through the a workbook called Breaking Free of OCD. I find it very helpful.
Anyway, my OCD isn't the typical OCD, but I just wanted to contribute.
I have OCD-at least my therapist thinks I do, so I am going with what she says considering she's the professional. However, my obsessions don't focus on orderliness, cleanliness etc. My OCD focuses on thoughts, images, etc that I get hung up on. They often reply over and over in my mind. Some of my compulsions include avoiding things that trigger my obsessions( never works) or mentally reassuring myself (which also never works). I am working my way through the a workbook called Breaking Free of OCD. I find it very helpful.
Anyway, my OCD isn't the typical OCD, but I just wanted to contribute.
hi there, i thought i'd quote your reply to this thread because it interested me :) i completely know what you mean about the obsessions, i can think of something totally random and convince myself it's real/is going to happen and i end up thinking about it all the time. it drives me insane! i don't think there is any "typical OCD" really..but i know obsessions with hygiene/numbers/orderliness are quite common. :)
also, i've seen a psychiatrist and she wrote a report on me to my doctor. she wrote "obsessions and compulsions"/"obsessive compulsive" about....5 times? :L she's yet to turn round and actually tell me i have OCD, but even my counsellor says i show a lot of the symptoms. my other obsessions (besides the one mentioned above) incude numbers (i have to avoid the number 3 or anything ending in the number 3, and especially the number 13...i also distrust all odd numbers in general apart from number 9...specific eh?), i have a very long list of phobias (my main ones are mirrors, the dark, shadows, reflective surfaces - eg. TV screen or pc monitor when switched off).... some of my compulsions include: - having to line up the shopping perfectly when in the checkout on the conveyor belt. - straightening out and lining up anything not symmetrical in general if i notice it. - i check things over and over again (i'm always paranoid that someone is in the house with me) but refuse to stop at 3, i always have to carry on til 4. - if something stops at 3 or 13, i have to carry it on (in general, could be anything.) - i play games with myself even if i don't want to. for example: "if i get a text while i'm walking up the stairs, there's someone in the house" or "if i don't reach my room in 5 seconds, there's someone in the house". - if i spot a spelling mistake in someone's work (written especially bugs me), i have to change it to the correct spelling.
babbled for ages now..xD.... this is a nice thread :) <3 x
Rarely on here nowadays - I just trauma dump on TikTok instead.
I don't have OCD, but I just wanted to say I do something pretty similar to this, usually involving the consequence being Josh not loving me - it's irrational but these things always are.
it's extremely frustrating isn't it? D: i hate it when i start thinking of the games because i'll play it for hours too. :( plus the fact that you know it's completely irrational makes it even worse.
Rarely on here nowadays - I just trauma dump on TikTok instead.
Hey, I’m so glad there’s a thread for OCD on here. Some people really don’t take it seriously; they think it’s something you should just get over. My OCD started when I was about 12. It was horrible and I didn’t really know what OCD was then. My obsessions were that horrible things would happen if I didn’t do my compulsions. Once I had spent half an hour on two stairs going up and down. Actually every second of every day I’m doing my compulsions. I mean that literally.
I repeat words in my head
Count
Touch things an even number of times
Open doors twice, turn the sink, shower, bath, stove and oven on and off two or four times
When I walk sometimes I have to go back and forth
I have to get up and sit down in a chair two or four times
I have to keep certain things in my room in certain places
Sometimes I have to redress and take my shoes off and put them back on
Even now I have to backspace and retype
I have to drink twice from my cup
And some foods have to be in even numbers
I have to open and close the fridge twice
That’s just some of the things I have to do. I never realized there was so many or how much time I spent doing them. It’s actually really exhausting. The compulsions are annoying, but the obsessions are what I hate. I got really depressed; I tried to sleep all the time, I took Nyquil and some other off the shelf sleeping pills. I started cutting soon after my obsessions got bad. Sometime I just wanted to die. But I’m doing better now. I still do my compulsions but my obsessions aren’t always so intense.
I’m in counseling and I’ve only talked about my OCD a few times, but telling someone my obsessions really lifted a weight off my shoulders.
Its been a while since i posted here ( years ago )
I never did chase it up that i might be OCD because my P doc was unapproachable ...i dont have a psych now
I am obsessed about a stress ball that i have take it everywhere with me i must have it around me ...i squeeze it 3 times every few seconds.
I am obsessed about the number 3 .. i count 1.2.3 ...1.2.3....1.2.3.
I must buy post it notes every time am in a stationary shop, but i dont use them.
I get obsessed about dangerous things like pills ... blades...ways of killing myself...
Anyone have any advice about getting yourself to tell somebody about your compulsions, which you have a hard time doing because you think they're too embarrassing?
Telling anybody, honestly. I have a hard time making myself say things even when I really need to. I have to tell somebody at some point, but I don't know how to stop stressing about it and just get it out there.
