Triggering (SI) - Today.....need help

bitheway · 16-09-2007, 02:33 AM

Hey my parents and brother came for a visit today and the first thing my dad does is tell me we had to talk....so me and him go up to my room and he tells me that he found out about the police taking my blade and that i have been cutting while i have been here.....he told me that if this happens again its back to the psych hospital.....i dont want to go back.....i have bad memories from that place.....sigh what do i do?

i really need to cut.....i just have a really bad craving but i managed to shave today with out a single cut.....thats something for me.....havent managed that in a long time......

i have a lot of pins on my bag and i got pricked by one, NOT on purpose and now i really want to do it again but this time on purpose....i just dont know what to do.......

i have been under a lot of stress because a few of my friends have been oding and cutting a lot this week and i am really worried about them.....can someone please help me.....

steph · 16-09-2007, 02:55 AM

I'm sorry that it didn't go well. that's not very supporting to be threatened when what you need is understanding. None of us can change our parents when they refuse to see that they are part of the problem, and don't seek help themselves in the correct way to deal with these things.

And no, when you're not feeling safe, you shouldn't try to help your friends or let them tell you how they hurt themselves, because it only sets you up for it. So next time make sure you are safe before you say ok to me. :) While I appreciate your offer to talk, it really isn't a help it it is going to upset you, in trying to help me, cause then I will just be worrying about you. You see the self-perpetuating pattern? Same things goes for all of trying to help out friends here. OK, nuff about that.

So far as wanting to hurt yourself, i know you're strong, and special. Hang in there and it will pass. try to distract yourself. *Hugs and cuddles*

cutupangel09 · 16-09-2007, 04:54 AM

Maybe you should take some time to focus on yourself. Even though they are your friends your mental health is still more important. I'm sorry about your parents. I know threating Psych doesn't help much because just quitting right then and there doesn't happen. Try to get past the urge it won't help the situation you are in now. Good Luck.