Recently I've been feeling so alone. My friends are there, but there not actually THERE if you get what I mean. My family are useless. My dad doesn't talk much, my brother doesn't either; he's always on the PS2 my mother loves my brother WAY more. She threatened to kick me out before, to a different country.
In my life, I havn't really experienced love. My family don't really care about me, they forgot I was taking my S.A.Ts and my brother was WAY more important with his GCSE's. I had an agressive, perverted, pushing boyfriends who made me feel useless so much, I actually felt useless! I feel so goddamn lonely and it's really getting to me. I have even started talking to myself.
I have been thinking about suicide and how I long for it. I know it's not the right way, and I shouldn't be thinking about death, I have so much to live for; yeah i've heard it all before. I just...I don't really know. I can't see a way out at the moment. Please can someone help me?
Hi. I know what you mean. I'm pretty much going through the same thing. PM me any time you want. I care, and I'll help you any way that I can. If you want to e-mail me, just ask for my address, and I'll give it to you.
~Gwen.~
"I let my guard down, and you caught me by surprise" Sonic Syndicate
add me if you want. just let me know you're from RYL.
Thank you. Sometimes I feel the whole world is on my shoulders and I don't know who to talk to. A lot of people say talk to a friend/parent/gp but I'm to scared. And now I've finally found this and people ask me about how I feel. I don't know what to say. THere's just so much.
Well, you can talk to me whenever you need and/or want to. I'll always reply as soon as i possibly can. Trust me. I really do understand. I promise I won't bombard you with questions, although, i may ask a few. So PM me or e-mail me. You can trust me with anything.
"I let my guard down, and you caught me by surprise" Sonic Syndicate
add me if you want. just let me know you're from RYL.
Thank you. I will pm you as soon as I work out how. Today was good when i was round my friends house. Except when I came back. It was all yelling and everything. I'm so sick of it. I'm not usually one to give up. But, If I don't where does that get me? It gets me nowhere. I'm thinking maybe it is easier.
Do u no how hard it is to stay strong when nothing is right and everything is wrong?
Why do i write love poems?..when all i can do is hate!..why do I see you as everything, when in fact it's too late?..
..why do I just take my life , with the blade of a knife?..
&& she'll look at her happy, childhood photos
&& say who was that girl i used to know
When am I gonna learn. Why? Cause i'm tired of hating
Do u no how hard it is to stay strong when nothing is right and everything is wrong?
Why do i write love poems?..when all i can do is hate!..why do I see you as everything, when in fact it's too late?..
..why do I just take my life , with the blade of a knife?..
&& she'll look at her happy, childhood photos
&& say who was that girl i used to know
When am I gonna learn. Why? Cause i'm tired of hating
Today was good. I have been having a REALLY good day with my ex. I still love him so hard, it's so hard to just be friends again. he first said we broke up cause he didn't love me any more. THen it was because of comittment issues and then he told someone he didn't really know why. Does ANYONE know what goes on inside a guys mind?!
Do u no how hard it is to stay strong when nothing is right and everything is wrong?
Why do i write love poems?..when all i can do is hate!..why do I see you as everything, when in fact it's too late?..
..why do I just take my life , with the blade of a knife?..
&& she'll look at her happy, childhood photos
&& say who was that girl i used to know
When am I gonna learn. Why? Cause i'm tired of hating
I love you truly.
Princess Alice, crazy, lazy and sweet