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im losing control and i cant take it anymore
i hate myself.
i hate the way i look in the mirror.
i hate the way i think about food all the time.
im tired of getting dressed and wearing things to hide my stomach.
i am a disgusting fat cow and i dont know how to get myself under control.
i hate myself when i eat.
i hate myself and dont feel good when i dont eat.
i wish we never had to eat food at all, its too stressful to think about.
i have been continplating going to see a dietitian but i dont know about that. i dont know if im ready for that. i feel like im spiraling out of control with food and eating and health and i dont know what to do.
i want to love myself the way i am as well as realize that with the right diet i wont always look like this, but i cant bring myself to think that way.
whats my first step?
what do i do?
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