Struggling (possibly triggering)

[ProzacSmile]

I'm struggling atm, i mean really struggling.

I shouldn't be. I have a good life really. I have a really supportive boyfriend, a gorgeous baby boy and great friends. But no-one who really understands.

I have really bad money trouble atm, which with a baby isn't fun. I'm having trouble with my son's father, who i just want out of my life. He stresses me out so much. My son is teething really bad and not sleeping. I struggle to cope on my own. I miss my boyfriend so much when he's not here, but he's not ready to live together yet. I need to learn to cope by myself.

I'm in major self-destructive mode again. But my boyfriend said he would be really angry if i cut. Argh i can't do all this anymore.

[hannahs04]

*hugs* hun I am so sorry you are struggling so much right now! I for one can totally relate to how you are feeling! I have two kids and am in the middle of a very nasty divorce-causing lots of stress. Am having tons of money issues-causing even more stress. My youngest is teething and my oldest is sick (my kids are one and two years old )So there are points where I am up for literally 3-4 days before I get to sleep. I know how hard it is to cope and be strong! but I know you can do it! Keep your head high! and keep smiling. PM me anytime if you wanna talk!!!

[PassedExpectations]

can you approach your boyfriend for support? it seems that if hes going to tell you that he expects you to not slip, he should be there to help you through the hard moments.....

do you have family nearby who could babysit every once in a while? just getting some time on your own to do what you need to, or just have a breather could be really helpful.

[ProzacSmile]

Thanks for the replies guys. Nice to know someone knows how I feel. My boyfriend always tells me I can call him anytime I need to, but sometimes I feel maybe he needs some time alone. He's pretty supportive most of the time, he understands that i have an illness and that SH is a side effect of that. And he keeps reminding me that we've been together for 5 months, and he's taken on me and a baby so he must love me, so i need to accept that!!
He's told me he's arranged for my mum to babysit this saturday so he can take me out for an early valentines dinner and a nice night to ourselves. Really excited :)
Still having major urges to cut, but trying really hard to keep myself distracted. Found some really difficult sudukos to keep my brain and my hands occupied :)

[hannahs04]

Good for you! that is so awesome that you are finding something to distract yourself! and awesome that your boyfriend is gonna take you out, Now you have something to look forward to :) Hope things go great for ya hun! Good luck and keep up the awesome work!