Crap

[TheGiantPanda]

Just feel really crap, don't even have the energy to cut, i just feel like whats the point, need a hug. Wanna cry but i just can't seem to cry, haven't been able to for ages, it sucks. Hate it when i'm like this. I just feel like life is continuing around me and i'm stood still, thats how it feels, weird. Can anybody relate? Things that normally cheer me up don't seem to work :(

[Parsley the Lion]

Hey Cherry, hope you're feeling a bit better since your post. Consider yourself hugged, anyway! Can't offer any specific advice other than to reassure you that you're not alone in feeling that way, and the worst of it will pass...life has a habit of picking up when you least expect it.

If it's any use, something that sometimes helps me when I'm feeling just drained and empty (which is where it sounds like you are just now) is to force myself to do something that I can't help but enjoy despite myself - pet an animal, climb a tree, watch cartoons from when I was a kid, go on a roller-coaster - doesn't matter how silly or pointless it is, it can help 'kick-start' me back into feeling vaguely normal for a bit, to the point where I can start to handle, and enjoy, normal everyday things again.

Stay strong and take care,

Parsley.

PS and entirely off-topic....had a quick look at your public profile and can thoroughly recommend Ghostwatch (1992) and The Stone Tapes (1978) as the two spookiest ghost stories ever shown on TV - both shown once and never repeated, but now available through the joys of the internet. (Am a bit of an afficionado of ghosts and old tv shows....)

[CagedBird]

Yes absolutely I relate. Sometimes it feels that life is swirling around me so fast and I've been knocked off my feet by it and am sat on the floor dazed and confused! It is crushing that feeling of needing to express an emotion but being completely unable to. I think I'd rather be depressed than numb....(okay I'm saying that now, i'll likely say the opposite when i'm depressed so don't hold me to it!!). But I do think it is kinda true because I think it comes down to feeling connected - sometimes being connected to bad feelings is less isolating than having so many and yet so few and not knowing what to think or feel. If that makes sense!

When I feel like that it is time to hunker down and get through. I tend to be less self punishing ironically and more withdrawing....if it helps I generally daze out and go to town to a coffee shop and 'read' (i'm not reading because the concentration is shot but it helps to pretend). It does truly suck, I relate alot. I hope the mood changes for you soon. Let us know how you are.

[TheGiantPanda]

Thanks for replies

Feel a bit better than when i posted, the numbness has passed but the self destructivness is back, so one bad thing has gone, and another is back, on the verge of cutting my clean arm though, the urge has been building for weeks and i feel like i'm just on the edge of doing it. I'm too anxious to go read a book in a coffee shop, wish i had the guts too though! glad you find it helpful

Parsley - I remember ghost watch when i was a kind, spooked me out and i couldn't sleep lol "A Haunting" is pretty good although i think they've stopped making it now :(