*Cuddles Lia, Mark, Jill and Sarah*
I want to change my name, and was looking through names, and Charlie just stuck out to me :)
You called me an angel, there must be a twist,
Have you ever seen an angel with scars on her wrist?
And blood trickling down from a gash on her arm,
Have you ever seen an angel self harm?-Unknown
Thankyou Mark :) My mum has agreed to let me legally change my name to Charlie aswell (not that she had any choice anyway lol) And I dunno, I was just thinking about everything, I wanna make a fresh start, Nicole was a silly little girl, I don't wanna be her anymore. :)
You called me an angel, there must be a twist,
Have you ever seen an angel with scars on her wrist?
And blood trickling down from a gash on her arm,
Have you ever seen an angel self harm?-Unknown
*cuddles Mark* thanks. I just wish people IRL understood that I can't be helping if I'm so bad myself that I just don't care what happens to me. Last night I was hallucinating so badly all I could hear was the door chime from my fiance's work over and over, solidly, for hours. So I wasn't really capable of doing anything to help anyone :(
Thanks for being here guys.
Nicole, Charlie is a lovely name. *cuddles*
Jill, its not your fault hun, even if they try to blame you *cuddles*
The Wardies are my Family. They'll always hold a special place in my heart. *~Plumeria Sister~*
*cuddles Mark* it started rows and things, from my state last night, this morning. So I've had a real crap morning too. 3h of on and off rows about my mental state. I wish I could help it. I wish I didn't need constantly looking after. I wish I was different >:(
The Wardies are my Family. They'll always hold a special place in my heart. *~Plumeria Sister~*
I'm sorry , Obviously we can't help out mental state , If we could do something about it we would , I take my meds and meet with CMHT (When they feel like it) but I still get **** days and I'm sure you do all that you can do as well hun, I wish I could help more Sarah *Hugs*
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
I'm doing everything I can, I've been to my GP so many times and I see my counsellor weekly, I take my meds without fail and I'm going to see mind for a chat, I'm waiting for the mental health team to ring me for an appointment but there's nothing else I can do. I can't "just be happy once in a while" because thats not how it works. I can fake it, and I can fake it bloody well. But with people I can trust I'd rather just be truthful, open and honest, but thats just biting me on the ass now. Balls to this, I'm gonna be a hermit.
The Wardies are my Family. They'll always hold a special place in my heart. *~Plumeria Sister~*
It sucks when we have to fake being Happy :S Don't be a hermit I'd miss you , I could be a Hermit , I try not to be TOO honest with my family ,I sometimes say I'm down but I never mention the S.I. or just how low I get .
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
I'm never open with my family about it for the reason they don't think mental health problems don't exist. :/ I just want to hide from everything sometimes because its so much effort faking happiness and its so hard when the people closest to us are getting fed up with looking after us :/ my mind is racing. Had green tea but not calmed down. Grr.
The Wardies are my Family. They'll always hold a special place in my heart. *~Plumeria Sister~*
*Cuddles Sarah* sorry, I don't really have much advice.
I just nearly took my thumb off while peeling potatoes :/
You called me an angel, there must be a twist,
Have you ever seen an angel with scars on her wrist?
And blood trickling down from a gash on her arm,
Have you ever seen an angel self harm?-Unknown
*Cuddles Sarah and Mark* I'm ok, put a plaster on it and carried on lol. And erm-a what now Mark? :/
You called me an angel, there must be a twist,
Have you ever seen an angel with scars on her wrist?
And blood trickling down from a gash on her arm,
Have you ever seen an angel self harm?-Unknown
