I'm sorry i've not been around much at all, i really am, i hope this explains it. even though this explanation will not excuse me.
I'm doing terribly :( I've been slipping back into restricting for a little while now, but on wednesday I was shocked to find that I couldn't eat an apple for my lunch. yesterday I didnt eat anything til 9 30 pm, then i had half of a cup-a-soup and one slice of bread and I purged it. Today I went home at lunchtime and did 100 sit ups. I've eaten tonight, about 800 calories (I was so hungry ) and I feel so guilty about it. I've got my stories for tomorrow and sunday already and i'm sticking to them. I dont want this. but I'm doing this anyway.
Whats wrong with me?
Alys xxx
Sorry.
If only you'd ever speak to me
the way you once did
look at me the way you once did
pull to me the way you once did
but you don't
you don't feel anymore
you don't care anymore
it's all gone
it's all gone
*cuddles*
Oh sweetheart, is there anyone you can talk to who can give you help for this?
800 calories is nowhere near enough for your body to run on, especially if you're excercising. I'd hate to see anything happen to you, you're such a lovely person. You have to try and fight this, you're strong you just have to believe in yourself.
Please try to eat something, even if you just have smoothies and some fruit. Something is a whole lot better than nothing.
Sorry I'm a bit useless right now.
Take care <3
You can PM me whenever you need to, I'm usually around alot.
if you need to talk, i promise i'll listen.
i hope you can be strong and keep journeying on and on the way trying to eat something even if its small, just giving your body that little bit of fuel to keep going.
i hope you can be ok, i would hate for anything to happen to you.
please try to help yourself i realize its hard.
Thank you both :) I appreciate it so much.
There are a few people i could talk to, all in school, and I am struggling with my gcse's as i'm taking a good few a year early.. I'm just not sure who yet.
Thank you so much, i love you x
If only you'd ever speak to me
the way you once did
look at me the way you once did
pull to me the way you once did
but you don't
you don't feel anymore
you don't care anymore
it's all gone
it's all gone
i took some early, you must be clever to do that, dont let this thing take over your concentration with your education especially as you have been given this opportunity to do well. try to use it.
i know its hard with everything going on but maybe with something else to concentrate yourself on it may make the other things easier?
you may also feel better if you confide in someone, talk to them because then you will have the added support in real life, not just on here, where we can only talk to you.
Don't worry about not being around sweety, you need to do what you have to for yourself before you can worry about coming on here *hugs tightly*
I'm sorry things are going so badly right now. Your slipping up with your eating, but you know what, that is completely normal. And if you feel like you can't get yourself better you should get some help before you get sicker. There is no need to feel bad for eating 800 calories, your body needs it to work, and its good for you darling, even though I know it feels like the worst thing in the world right now.
There is nothing wrong with you, your just ill. Sweetheart you have to eat this weekend. you cant go 2 days without eating its terrible for your health, as I'm sure you already know.
Be safe and take care of yourself - you know where I am. xx
Paige <33
I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling at the moment. I haven't got much advice but if you ever want to talk then my PM box is always open.
You shouldn't feel bad about 800 cals, it's a very small amount compared to what you should be eating and your body needs some food to run itself on.
xx
Try & talk to someone in school, it might really help.
You obviously need some extra support while you're going through a hard time, & they might be able to provide you with that.
That's nowhere near enough food for you to be able to function even NORMALLY, never mind well.
Look after yourself precious.
You know where I am.
x
Last edited by Accidentally Abstract : 08-09-2007 at 11:42 AM.
Reason: Adding invite to talk!
Oh sweetie I'm so sorry... my eating has been like that recently too, eating a few cookies then purging, not eating all day... i know how hard it is. What's wrong with you is Anorexia, and you need help sweetheart. Please reach out. At least try to eat a banana every day to keep your potassium ok and drink water and take vitamins and stuff. *hugs*
s a r a h
* pm me * eating disorders info *
"Between two worlds life hovers like a star,
twixt night and morn, upon the horizon's verge."
- Lord Byron
i love you so much and hate to see you struggling
try to remember our funny memories, like the skirt in bath!! and remember that there is more to life than this, and you deserve to be enjoying it.
you are so wonderful... please keep trying
sorry i havent got good words right now
If the world didn't suck, we'd all fall off! (hmm)
Join Date: Oct 2005
Location: (West Midlands) Staffordshire "UK"
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Alee my gorgeous princess =]. I'm so sorry i wasn't online on friday or over the weekend. I guess the past few days have been my busyest for a long time by far. I just wanted to remind you about....... GRB =D..( not like you would have forgotten or owt but...)..Just remember that i love you, and GRB will get us through. Keep strong my darling, i know you are.. Hope school isn't going too bad for you today hunni & that you might have decided to talk to your chemistry (?) teacher. I think it'd help you an awful lot, to get some kind of offline support. Somewhere, where you know you could go,& the support is always there if you need it. =].... I'm waiting on your text, (if you have money left to get credit hehe) & i'll speak to you abit later tonight hopefully.
Love you lots my GRB =D..Keep fighting.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I actually didn't talk to her today *guilty eyes* but we did have a nice chat about th time i got drunk and yeah.. I think I'll see her on wednesday. no.. actually.. I will.
thank you so much everyone
xxx
If only you'd ever speak to me
the way you once did
look at me the way you once did
pull to me the way you once did
but you don't
you don't feel anymore
you don't care anymore
it's all gone
it's all gone
Dont appologuise for not being here, you deserve help, please take it, nobody can make you do anything, but talking can help you sort things out for yourself as well as offloading your problems xxx
L_M_G is my mummy :) inkerman and razorbladedarling are my two non-identical twin sprogs (concieved on same day) Scabette< cos she has the cutest puppy dog eyes and i cant resist!feeling-afraid< my bottle of glitter!! which i just have to have :Pmidnight stars< my gorgeous sister, whom i love to bits ;) Dance With The Fairy< *star*gazing*buddie :] Broken-Fairy is my partner in crime ;) little_miss is my real life saviour PaperClip is my stationary queen
oh babes... *hugs* You know that this isn't right, you know that you need to eat... You've helped me so much, and I'm really worried about you. Seriously, PM me if I'm not on msn ANY time. You're strong, you can get through this.
xxxxxxxxxxxx
and there she goes with her head in the clouds again, ignoring the drama and chasing her dreams. because to her, reality is a stranger.
) and I feel so guilty about it. I've got my stories for tomorrow and sunday already and i'm sticking to them. I dont want this. but I'm doing this anyway.
