Help (i don't think it will trigger, but it might)

tonightXweXfall · 07-09-2007, 06:46 PM

I really need help. It's getting harder and harder to resist SI. I know I should talk to my parents, or get some professional help, but I'm too scared to talk to them about it. I know avoiding it is the wrong way to go, but, I don't now how to approach the subject. I'm not happy and I'm hiding that too.
I really don't know how I would explain those things to my parents, like why I SI. I know the main reasons as to why I do it, but there are still so many little reasons that I don't why I do it for.
I'm also afraid that my parents will put me in some sort of treatment program or a treatment facility where I'll be required to talk about my problems. I can barely talk to my friends about it, and I can barely type it here - so imagine it in front of people I've never met. When my parents found out my sister's bulemia, they put her in a treatment program at mercy hospital. She had to go to the hospital everyday, from really early in the morning to around 6pm. I'm afraid they'll do that to me, or even worse, send me away.
And going that long knowing that I don't even have access to a razor at all, would kill me. I feel helpless when I don't have a razor or a blade nearby. I feel stupid to even be thinking that way, but it's the truth.
Is it normal to feel his way about telling my parents? And is it normal to be afraid of what they'll do when they find out? I need help. PLEASE!!!

~Gwen~

Nothingness · 07-09-2007, 10:25 PM

Hey. It's perfectly natural to not want to tell you're parents anything.

I know, most people know through experience.

You could either talk to your parents but if you didn't want to risk being sent away you could try having a therapist. It is somtimes easier as they have no part in your life so when you do go you can talk about anything and know they won't say anything. - In some places thought, you need parental permission.- I don't really know exactly though as I don't have therapy. But thanks to people here, I might go have a look.

Hope all goes well. Keep the hope x

tonightXweXfall · 07-09-2007, 10:52 PM

Thanks. Well, I can't drive to a therapist, or afford one. I don't have my license or a job, so I guess I'll have to wait. But talking to people on here is helping me a lot. thanks.s

.ghost. · 08-09-2007, 09:15 AM

It's a normal feeling to not want your parents to know, many people feel that way. It's even more understandable if you're worried about them putting you in a treatment programme.

When your sister told them about her ED, how did they react? Were they supportive of her and listened to what she had to say about it/what treatment she wanted or did they make her go into the hospital?

If you want to see a therpaist (and I know you might not want to talk aobut it, but I hate talking about it to people I know but I actually like my psych) then maybe you could ask whether you could see one over anxiety or stress something like that? That way you might be able to see a therapist without havign to tell them, and you could ask him/her not to tell your parents if you ever did talk aobut SI (and as long as you're not in any danger to yourself then they don't tell your parents).

I looked at you profile and saw you're 15, when are you 16? When you are 16, I don't think they could send you to hospital if you didn't want to so if it's not that far off you could wait until then.

Take care, hope you manage to get help somehow.
xx

Amaryllis · 08-09-2007, 06:24 PM

Are you in the UK or the states? Laws are different pertaining to Psyc stuff in different places.

I'm not much help with this. Some adults take it fine and just kinda react like you're accident prone or something. Some adults will take it like you're trying to ruin their lives.

I can however, tell you how to not let them know. Don't have them come talk to you sometime about something you did wrong and then start talking about how all you do is want to die. Or have them come to visit you and find you in the hospital. Those are bad ways.

tonightXweXfall · 10-09-2007, 02:36 AM

I turn 16 on october 7th. Less than a month away. I odn't know how my parents reacted. They talked outside and I had to stay inside to watch my brothers. I think they were suppotive, but my sis came inside, tears streaming down her cheeks, so yeah.

tonightXweXfall · 10-09-2007, 02:37 AM

And thanks for the help.