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so my mom asked me today if I have an ED. She heard me purging the other day (I told her it was just something I ate), and my dad told her about all my weight loss. I tried to make it sound as ridiculous as possible that I would ever do anything like that, but I don't know if she believes me. I asked her after a little while to "make sure" she believed me- she said yes, but I'm still not sure. I looked on the search history for the computer, and found that my mom had been looking up stuff on eating disorders. I'm so scared right now! I've already been caught for SI multiple times, and I can't afford to be caught for this.
goodness... I'm so confused... it's making me sick. My physical symptoms are getting worse, and I was stupid enough to tell my mom about those too. She then turned around and used those as symptoms of an ED. This is so unsettling... I hate being so unsure.
I don't know exactly what I'm looking for through posting this, but does anyone have advice or something?
thank you all for reading this
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
It sounds like she is worried about you, and that is not a bad thing at all. If she knows about your difficulties it could really be a burden off your shoulders. Think of the support she could give and not needing to hide things any more.
well... my mom and i dont have a good relationship at all. she's been emotionally abusing me for as long as i can remember, and it would only make things worse if she knew about the ED. I really don't want to disappoint my parents again after all that's already happened. I don't want to hurt my family anymore...
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
I'm sorry that your relationship with your mom isn't good. That can always be tough especially when you are struggling. But it does sound like she is legitimately concerned about you, looking it up online and asking you about it show that.
Are you getting any professional support? Maybe this would be a good opportunity to get into therapy if you aren't already. Take care hun.
I wanna stay inside all day
I want the world to go away
I'm sort of getting professional help. I've been seeing a psychiatrist for meds. I've gone to therapy lots of times in the past, but it hasn't done much for me... also been to a hospital...
There's a religious counselor I saw last month. It's not a regular thing, and it's been a while since I've seen him. I was supposed to have an appointment the other week, but something happened and had to cancel.
thanks everyone for your replies
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
