It's only an intensive day place but if you don't go in every day they send the police out. I was only discharged about a month ago. I'm very confused about being there cos I really don't feel like I deserve it at all with all the time I had last time. I'm doing everything I can & everything I'm 'meant' to be doing; not hurting myself, eating, trying to contain things and keep up with life but I'm still completely overwhelmed and generally not coping.
You dont have to apologise for posting - were here to listen to you!
I have been to a similar style day place and know that it can be a daunting experience. Perhaps just try to take it a day at a time and make the most of the opportunities to speak with the staff when your struggling.
Also if you are not sure why your there, you have every right to have the staff expalin to you why they feel you need to be there at the moment.
I can understand how you feel about this, as I was recently in a day program myself. It wasn't much fun, and I didn't really feel like I needed to be there. But you know, surprisingly, it really ended up helping me. I tried to have a positive attitude about it, and it really don't turn out all too bad. Just try to look at this as the best you can. It may end up helping you, you never know. You just have to give it the chance. And trust me, I speak from experience. I've been admitted to the hospital twice, and when to a day program once. I know what you're going through. But it doesn't have to be a bad thing.
It sucks but you may end up finding this place really helpful, give it a go. Hopefully it will help you build up more coping resources which will help you in the long run. Also you do deserve this support, there is no such thing as you've been helped in the past so you don't have any support time left.
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
I'm loosing my mind. No joke. & I can't tell them because they think I'm clever & sane & that I just get down or whatever but it's so much more than that. I'm about to run away. I don't know where. To somewhere where things make more sense.
tell them whats going on. you don't need to pretend that you're doing well, and in fact, they probably wouldn't want you to. they will want you to be honest so that they can help you. they can't help if they don't know whats all is going on.
this is my magical medicine cabinet. Left to right they contain: courage, hope, calmness, and strength.
The magical part: They NEVER run out, so borrow some any time you want.
I'm positive they won't hurt you if you tell them and I think you should too. I'm sorry you're finding it so hard but keep trying, I bet you're doing better than you think.
It makes no sense to tell the people that could kill you that you are worried they might kill you because surely they would just have more knowledge to use against you and I don't want that. I don't want to be held down. Sorry.
They're all in it together. So it doesn't matter who I tell. I told my mum last night and she said I should tell them but I don't know if I can. I don't know what I'd be saying. I'm terrified.
I know I can't make you believe me but they won't hurt you. Is there something you can do until they come to take your mind off it and help you relax a bit? Take care
Kat xxx
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
I avoided them & they haven't called the police yay. I'll try and talk to them later. Just gona forget about it for now & try get this damn essay done.
