My therapist is due on the anniversary of when I misscarried

[merriman_sisters]

I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this or not...if it isn't I'm sorry. I just need to vent and need advice.

My therapist is pregnant, she's overjoyed. Everytime she says the word baby she smiles, if the topic of kids comes up she gets super happy. Everytime I see her my mom wants to talk to her (before or after I see her) about the baby.

She's due next sping pretty much on the anniversary of when I misscarried (this year) and that's around the time I'll stop seeing her.

Anyway, I feel really stupid because I'm getting really upset about her having a baby then. I know that's lame. But every time I see her I leave feeling badly. I tried talking to her about it, but I'm super scared to really talk to her about it because I should be over it. I feel like there's something wrong with me because I should just stop thinking about it, should just let it go, I shouldn't be sad about it, I didn't want kids, and I wasn't that far along when it happened, and also when I told her I misscarried she told me (when I was crying my eyes out) that I "had it comeing"....and that really made me mad. So I'm worried she'll say something like that again. I wish I had someone to talk to about this other then her too because I don't want to be a kill joy for her. But the only other person I could talk to/vent to would be my boyfriend and he's got a lot of trouble in his own life right now and I don't want to put him under anymore stress or have him worry about me ...(he really stopped me from killing myself after I misscarried and I don't want him to think that I'll try to end my life again)...and I don't know what to do. I could really use some advice please.

[<(O_O<) (>O_O)>]

WTF! that's disgusting, saying you had it coming! no wonder you were mad! *big big hugs* did you make a complaint about that, or something? i think that's bloody terrible :/

also honestly i think you have a right to be upset that her due date is on such an unpleasant anniversary

[shoekitty]

I had a miscarriage in march of this year. Firstly, you never forget it or get over it. Yes you might feel better but it wont ever be gone. I feel better now but its still upsetting that it happened and that i was so happy to be pregnant with him and then all of a sudden its over. Its really hard to see pregnant people when youve had a loss, everywhere i looked after mine there was a pregnant woman or a newborn baby. Personally i would stop seeing her and find a different therapist, im actually surprised she hasnt already suggested you do that. Waving something in your face that youre upset about isnt a good way to start a session.

[merriman_sisters]

Thanks so much <(0 0<) (>0 0)> and shoekitty. It really ment a lot to me too see you guys reply. :) I've been feeling like no one cares at all. *hugs* <(0 0<) (>0 0)> no, I mostly just got really mad at her after that and when I'm mad I just don't talk or do anything. And thanks.

shoekitty aw. *hugs* Thanks. I'm sorry that happened to you as well. That's really sad. *hugs again* She did bring up me seeing another therapist, but that'd be more money then seeing her and the therapist I had before her was SUPER mean to me so I'm scared that'll happen again. I will be seeing a new one hopefully once she has her baby though for a few months.

[startingagain]

What did she mean you had it coming? It doesn't sound very nice. I'd ask to see someone else. She'll be going on maternity anyway, so you can present it as wanting to transfer now.