Possibly Triggering - 2 months free,but...

slipping up again · 04-09-2007, 08:57 PM

I finally made it to 2 months without self harming. I've never gone that long before, so this seems like a real milestone for me. The last week has been really hard, very stressful, I dont know how I managed not to cut, but I didnt.

Then, just as I'm thinking to myself, this evening, how good it feels to reach 2 months, I get triggered. My sister rang me and talked about her problems. But I just dont have the strength to cope with her stuff as well as my own. I wish she wouldnt burden me with her problems. I know that sounds selfish, but it's hard enough dealing with my own stuff, never mind having to listen to my sister's problems. I'm the one left having urges to SI, which I'm kinda upset about now, because I'm supposed to be happy to have gotten to 2 months, instead I get urges to SI.

Sorry, this was supposed to be a happy post because I reached 2 months, instead it turned into a bit of a rant!

huggybear · 05-09-2007, 01:02 PM

Hey Siobhan,

Congratulations on the 2 months that is great! you should be so proud.. i know how hard that has been for you and to achieve this is so good to hear! You have every right to be proud of yourself for it!

As for your sister.. maybe its time to tell her that you have enough onb your plate with out her adding to it.. you dont have to tell her why.. but just ask her if she can talk to someone else rather that you? at the end of the day if it is leaving you feeling like this then maybe you should consider telling her the truth.. yeah that may be hard but if she can support you through it and if she is being honest with you maybe you should be back!

that is only my advice you dont have to take any notice of me if you dont want too.

*massive hugs*

Charlotte x

klo_flo · 06-09-2007, 03:15 PM

Hey Siobhan.

Hugs congratulations with making it 2months SH free... especially when it sounds as though it hasn't been the easiest for you still. If you can try and think of all the positive things that helped you through this time though... you can call on those things if you find yourself struggling. It can be anything from getting enough sleep to calling a friend when you felt the urges. Be proud and treat yourself.

With regards to the triggering conversation with your sister... what was triggering about it? Is it just the fact that you have to help her through things as well? If that is the case then you should let her know that you are having a tough day and can you call her back tomorrow [a time when you are feeling more up to it]. If it is just the specific things, then avoid those topics. The key is communicating though as I'm sure she wouldn't want you to be feeling so pressured, but she won't know unless you say something.

Your options don't have to be happy *or* sad, you *can* feel both.. pride is something else you should let yourself feel too.

Keep it up,
Chloe xx

abcdefgpie · 14-09-2007, 11:25 AM

Hey.
Really well done for 2 months, that's a really really great achievement.
Is your sister aware how hard you're finding things at the moment?
You may think you're being selfish, but you have to be to get better, and you won't really be able to help anyone else if you're struggling.
Take care.
Rhiannon xxxx