Triggering (Abuse) - Hit By Mark! Or Known As My So Called DAD!

[HelloKittyDarkness]

Last Night It Was My Step Sisters 18th Birthday Party,
I Got Drunk,Drinking Many Strong Drinks,And Mixed Drinks.
I Was Just Having A Good Time,In Noone's Way.
And It Was Coming Up To Midnight And Most People
Had Left,And Me And My Three Step Sisters And A Few Others,
Were In The BackYard,Drinking,And Talking.
My Dad And His Girlfriend Decided To Go To Bed,
Seeing As All The People Had Gone Except For People
Who Were Staying The Night.
My Dad Then Said i had To go To Bed,
So i Went Up To Bed And Waited Til He Went To His Room.
I then Got Up And Went Back Downstairs And Joined
The Rest Again.
We Were All Having A Laugh,And I Had, Had Alot to Drink By That Time.
About an Hour Later My Dad Came Storming Downstairs,
Saying "Bed!",
i Then started Walking Out Of The Front Room,
Heading Towards The stairs,
But i Had The Giggles Because i Just Found it All so Amusing
At The Time,
I Then Looked At Him,And i giggled,
He Then Slapped Me Around The Face,
And My Face Went 'BLANK',
My Dad Had Never Hit Me Before!?!
it Shocked Me So Much,
I Turned Back Around Facing Towards The Stair Case And He Pushed Me In the Back,
So I Started Quickly Walking Up The Stairs,
And He Then Forcefully Pushed Me Up The Stairs.
I The Quickly Jumped into Bed And Was in Tears,
About 5 Minutes Later My Dad Was At My Bedroom Door,
He Said "Why are You Crying?"
I Said "Because You Slapped Me"
He Gave Me The Most Dirtiest Look And Said
"I Never Hit You I Gently Pushed You Up The Stairs",
I Didn't Have The Guts To Argue With Him,
I Just Wanted To Go To Bed.
He Then said " You Have A Hell of Alot Of **** Coming Your Way!",
I Was So Scared i Closed My Eyes,
He Carried On looking At me,
He Said "You Move From This Bed,You Will Be In So Much More **** Than You Are in Now!".
My Heart Raced And He Finally Left The Room.
I Was Up All Night,
Trying To Get Hold Of My Friend,But There Was No Answer.
I Woke Up Early The Next Morning,
And Started Cleaning Up,
Then Got Ready To Go Out In town,
He Woke Up And Came Downstairs,
he Said " You! Come Here,"
So i followed Him Into The Next Room,
And He Said "You Disgust Me! I Have No Trust In You Anymore! You Are To Be Home At Half Past Five,"
I Was So Scared of him Before,
But now All the Emotion Has Cracked Up,
And I Am so Scared Of My Own Dad,
I need To Get Out The House!
But I Can't!
I Can't Stand Up To Him,Because He Always Wins The Arguement!
He Always Has To Be Right!
How Can i Win?!?
People I need Your Help! Please!
im planning to run away,im gunna commit suicide,i need my mum,but i havent got the guts to ring her!
i want my mummy!
im 13 and pathectic!
but i want my mum so bad!
I hate myself
i can't tell my family
i dont have the confidence like that
i dont speak to them
WTF can i do! please im pleading for help! begging you for just a bit of advice please

[howlie,]

At 13 i dont think anyone would ocnsider it pathetic to ring someone.
Try and call your mum or a friend if you can.
Or maybe try a charity?
Perhaps you culd ring or email the samartians or childline.
I suggest you try and be rbave and ring your mum if you can thouh. SHes the best person to talk to in a situation like this.

[Heaven Knows]

i can't really offer anymore advice than what ...howl's already said because it's the best thing to do.
but i just wanted to say that you're not pathetic, not at all.
please try and call you're mum honey.
am always here if you need to talk.
kt xx

[Chrissyann]

Hun, no matter how old you are it's not pathetic to ring someone when you're in danger or upset. You need to do whatever you can to make it better for yourself, and if that involves phoning your mum, then you should do it hun. No-one should treat you the way your dad did the other night and you need to do whatever you can to stop it happening again.

Take care
*hugs you tight*
Chrissy
xxx

[bloodletting]

*hugs* your dad has no right to hurt or intimidate you in any way, you are his daughter and he should be protecting you, we all bend the rules when we're young, and it's understandable that you just wanted to hang out with everyone else.
can you go stay with your mum? or at least ring her and let her know whats happened?
your dad obviously doesnt feel bad about what he did which means he thinks he didnt do anything wrong, and there is always the danger that he will do it again, you don't need to put up with this, talk to someone, a friend, counsellor or maybe one of your sisters.
take care sweetie xoxoxox