As each day passes my mum is getting closer and closer to knowing i self harm, when she discovers things like blood on my coat, bandages, i can see the hurt in her eyes.. i want to stop for her, but thats the reason i do so knowing that i hurt her makes me want to do it even more. the reasons i self harm are mainly because i hate who i am, its my coping mechanism and also to punish myself for hurting others...but if i need to stop coz im hurting others than ive already done the hurt to them, so i must hurt... confused :(
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You need to try to come to your own conclusion about it in your own time. Punishing yourself doesnt make things right. It doesnt make up for whatever you've done that you think you should be punished for. And if it hurts other ppl then that just makes you feel worse. It's a vicious cycle. I think you should forgive yourself for whatever you think you've done that's bad. Forgiveness is highly underrated and it helps you move forward (which you deserve to do). You'll be better at coping with things, you'll be in a more positive mindset, and that in turn will make you feel like you're hurting ppl less, and then that'll lessen your desire to hurt yourself, and it'll keep getting better. It's hard, but I guess the first thing you gotta do if you wanna stop is to try to forgive yourself and accept the past for what it is. If you're close with your mother (and if you feel like you're ready) maybe you can tell her and tlk to her about it. If not then just leave that part out.
i think if she's seriously suspecting it, it would probably be better to tell her. cause then you both won't have to tiptoe around it, and also, she probably would feel better if you let her know voluntarily, rather than her dragging it out of you if something happens...
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it is worse if they find out on thier own. believe me.
perhaps when you are away for a bit then you could text or e-mail her?
you could say you dont feel like talking yet.
she will be less upset if you tell her than if she finds out from elsewhere.
I agree with the others. I was in this situation just a couple weeks ago. You need to tell her. Keeping the cutting a secret will only make things worse. The guilt will eat away at you, which will make you want to self-harm more. It's an awful cycle. Telling is much better than being found out.
