Why.. is it so hard..

[~Kaytee~]

.. to stick to a meal plan?

Honestly.. I was supposed to be aiming for eating 5 times a day, every 3 hrs. I couldn't do it. So we (the psych and me) planned to try 3 times a day with snacks being flexible. *sighs* Again, I can't do it. I feel so stupid as the foods I'm eating at the moment are safe foods, that's what she wanted me to stick with for now yet I still can't do it.

I just... argh. I feel so frustrated, I feel so disappointed, I feel so stupid and pathetic that I can't do this. I don't want to get sicker, I don't want to face hospital, I don't want this to kill me yet I can't bring myself to eat. I went to the shops yesterday to buy some of my 'safe' foods yet every time I reached out my arm to grab something, there was something stopping me and I ended up leaving the shops empty handed and nearly in tears.

Any advice? Anyone who can understand? lol.

On the plus side, I've count down on purging so that's something right?

[random.swirls]

Can you start with eating one of the meals a day and if you can manage that in addition to what you normally eat then in a couple of days add a snack and so on - 3 meals is a lot to come to terms with so maybe you need to break it down into baby steps BUT keep moving upwards every other day if not daily because it's easy to stall and it sounds like you need to keep moving in recoverys direction!

[realflifefaerie]

I can understand the going shopping and coming back with nothing. Could you get someone to go with you or be on the phone to someone whilst you do it?

As for the meal plan i agree with above, take it smaller steps that are manageable. See if you can increase it by one meal/snack this week.