I gave in..

[LittleMonster] · 23-10-2010, 01:12 AM

After 5 months!

I'm an idiot. I felt as though I wasn't consciously doing it..

I don't even know what excuse I can use for my house mates..Help..

meliya · 23-10-2010, 01:19 AM

I don't think you're an idiot. Sometimes things happen. I stopped for about 4 months once and I did it on night unconsciously..like breathing. You don't have to give an excuse to your house mates. You can tell them why you did it if they ask, and if you don't know why, leave it at that. I hope they are understanding.

[LittleMonster] · 23-10-2010, 01:23 AM

Thankyou <3
I can't tell them, they don't know that I have any issues mentally, I appear to be a normal happy student to them & that's how I want it to stay.
I think I'll just make something up on the spot..

My best mate is coming tomorrow & I suspect she'll see and know straight away but I won't lie to her
xx

PassedExpectations · 23-10-2010, 02:23 PM

*cuddles*

it feels horrible when that happens, but it doesn't mean that you can't keep trying and keep recovering. hopefully having your friend visit will help you feel better too.

is there any way to just hide the cuts from your housemates? so that they wouldn't ask questions.... and i've generally found that its easier to make up beleivable excuses if you sorta know what you're going to say beforehand, and then that way you don't forget as easily what your excuse was if someone brings it up later.

Everything is fine · 23-10-2010, 10:48 PM

These things happen, it doesn't make you a failure. It always seems extra frustrating when you've lasted for so long but don't be too hard on yourself, you're in recovery after all. Just keep going :)

Laura2.0 · 23-10-2010, 11:05 PM

You are in recovery. It's a process and it doesnt happen over night.

Garnious · 23-10-2010, 11:18 PM

No need to beat yourself up it happens all that's important is that you've learned from it.

[LittleMonster] · 24-10-2010, 12:48 PM

Thank you guys :)
My best mate was definitely able to see but she didn't say anything about it, she knows that I used to anyway, I saw her looking but appreciate her for not saying anything.
I might say to my housemates I did it on a nightout somehow, sounds more believable haha
xx

Gone. · 24-10-2010, 01:18 PM

I found that it was useful to be honest with your housemates about how you're feeling. I mean, it's difficult to be completely honest but if you give them an overview of your moods and generally what you feel then they can look out for you. I know you don't know them completely or anything but it can be invaluable to have that support on nights out or during the days and stuff.

What do you think you're looking for support-wise?

[LittleMonster] · 24-10-2010, 01:31 PM

Thanks for that, but being quite new & still kinda strangers (Well sort of) it would be a bit weird to do this.
Also one of my friends made a joke about mental illness the other day so I don't think they'd quite understand :/

I have no idea tbh, I almost dropped in on the counsellors the other day & emailed them but I chickened out.
My best mate & bf are trying to persuade me to go to the dr's about another issue which is kinda co-morbid to being depressed.
x