you were my reason to stop. i can't see why i should anymore.
^this.
I wish you'd go lay down so I can tear myself up...I don't need to be caught again.
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I've come to realise that we were both right. I was right in saying we would never be friends again, you were right when you said I wasn't good enough for you.
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
We drifted.
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
URRRGHGHGG, I like you, you like me. It isn't rocket science. We're perfect for eachother. To the extent that even random people in pubs say it now. I now you love her... but equally, you aren't IN love anymore. I just don't want to be a total mug again.
We’ve got obsessions
I want to erase every nasty thought that bugs me every day of every week
We’ve got obsessions
You never tell me what it is that makes you strong and what it is that makes you weak.
S- I don't want to talk to you. But I want you too see that the way you are behaving is completely unacceptable and apologise. The way I was behaving was also completely unfair but it's nothing compared to the hurt you're causing. You've had me and K in tears so I can only imagine the pain that N will have to go through. Who else have you got on the go?
K - Please don't fall for it all over again. I want us both to be strong.
A - I'm going through a lot right now. And I really wish I could explain it all to you. But you hate him, and you'd hate me too. I really really like you, and I'm sorry I got sucked in by him. I want to move on from that though. And I'm hoping you're going to move on too. You're the one person right now who actually seems reliable.
Sabrina, I still love you like a sister, you were my first friend I had in awhile when we met over youtube 5 years ago, you shown me that maybe there was hope for a screwup like me. We may have had our fights, but we always made it through. Its all my fault your not with Dan now, and I apologize. We had eachothers backs through thick and thin, and now what happened? I guess its like always, you shown me how to trust and love again, and then you break me down.
How does it feel, knowing your barely alive
See through bloodshot eyes, your left empty inside
There I was, strung out and drug through the mud
I must agree, you're just like me.
And when you die,I won't be at your wake
No eulogy from me,Just a smile on my face
And while God might be busy,With judging your soul
I will have slept with the girl,that you loved most!
~FALLING in REVERSE
I love you but i cant be with you my heart aches to pick up the phone and tell you im sorry but i cant because next week ill do the same push you away tell you i dnt love you that i want you to leave you say i have too many secrets... I do these are secrets that nobody can find out and you read me like noone else can.. you scare me i dnt want you to know the truth will you think of me or my family different i found out something whilst we were together that ultimatly finished our relationship a secret to sick for words ive tried so hard for us to work you worshipped the ground i walk on but i tread over you becuase i cant believe that men are anything other than the sick twisted perverted twisted twats ive known i come across cold heartless and dead of emotion when telling you its over in the end you will see that someone else can accept your love and your heart but im not that one i cant keep hurting you its been a week now that you left and the worst week of my life but im hoping we can be in touch and i havnt completly destroyed the faith u had in me im doing this for both of us i shouldnt be with anyone let alone anybody who deserves so much more than i can give
When you asked whether there were any "other acute issues" and I said "no" I was lying. I'm sorry, I just don't think I can tell you the truth - I'm too embarassed and it would be yet more 'fuss over nothing' anyway.
Always seem to get things just that little bit wrong.
"don't wish, don't start, wishing only wounds the heart"
help me. i'm scared. i thought i could do this but now i don't know. everything is falling so quickly - it's all slipping out from under me quicker than i thought possible. sometimes i don't even know what i'm feeling. i don't feel real. my bad dreams seem like life. i can't take any of this. i'm alone. oh god i'm scared.
Maybe this is the time to stop asking for help and support. That way I'll avoid the disappointment of it not happening. Cause things just feel terrible right now and I have nobody. My dad has come home and nobody fucking cares.
I am starting to see what I really mean to people.
Everytime I read about a car crash I secretly hope to read your name, because all those things you did and said ruined me forever. I'm never going to get over it...
I want to give you the world if you just stay with me tonight,
I want to give you the world if you just hold me tight!
