Location: Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
I am currently:
Please Help Me Not... *Urgent*
I've been SI free for like 3 or 4 months now I think, I didn't really mark the date last time, but I'm severely triggered right now. I don't know what happened, I just put my computer down and this feeling that I need to do it NOW came over me. I'm scared to move because I know that just out of arms reach I have a tool to do it with and I don't want to do it, I've come so far. I don't want to relapse into it again. I've had the urge for the last several weeks and I've been able to resist or distract myself, but I haven't felt like this in months and months. I feel my heart pounding in my chest and I wanna cry, I just feel like I HAVE to.
Please, help! I'm scared and I don't wanna lose again...
Deep trouble, losing control. Primary resistance at a critical low.
On the double gotta get ahold. Point of no return one second to go. No response on any level. Red alert this vessel's under seige, total overload. System's down, they've got control.
There's no way out.
I'd suggest going somewhere where you dont have anything around you that you can use, first and foremost. And...what do you usually do to distract yourself? Do stuff to keep you busy, keep your mind focused. If you have anyone to call or tlk to, tlk to them, take your mind off it. You've been doing really well, so just keep telling yourself that resisting urges is definitely possible, and that you can resist it, and it'll be better for you if you do. Hope it works out.
i have NEVER been good at fighting these urges, useuly if the feeling orrises i just give up. and i just wish you all the love and kindness i can give to get through this, although i do have to say playin music has resontly helped me alot and if you don't play anything maybe singing, even if it is an upsetting song because keeping the feelings locked inside makes things alot worse i am sorry if it dosn't work and i hope you make it though it <3 <3 <3
Don't get the octopus upset, It may eat itself!(8)ismfof - WTFWJD
im tired.... so tired of hiding my self, my life, my world.
what is so wrong with being me?
whats wrong with what i do?
i can't see why i should be ashamed any more!
Location: Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
I am currently:
Thanks.
I got to talk to my sister about it, I think I just needed to actually talk to someone I knew wasn't going to judge me or be all weird about it. I listened to some music and had a good cry... Thanks for the support and advice.
Deep trouble, losing control. Primary resistance at a critical low.
On the double gotta get ahold. Point of no return one second to go. No response on any level. Red alert this vessel's under seige, total overload. System's down, they've got control.
There's no way out.
Location: Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
I am currently:
I just wish I understood what happened so I could avoid it happening again.
Deep trouble, losing control. Primary resistance at a critical low.
On the double gotta get ahold. Point of no return one second to go. No response on any level. Red alert this vessel's under seige, total overload. System's down, they've got control.
There's no way out.
3-4 months of being SI free is amazing. I've barely been able to go days without it, but i've gone a few months without it so I'm feeling a lot better.
You've done so well to go so long without SHing, so keep at it and keep strong. Whatever distractions work best for you are your best bet to carry on going right now. Remember that you're not alone and there are always people on here to help you.
Well done on going so long SI free.
Keep strong and stay safe.
I'm always here if you need to chat x
Turn your wounds into wisdom.. ♥ Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing! ♥
You wished you understood what happened? Try thinking about where you were when you felt like this, what time it was, if you were alone, had something triggered you, did you see your 'tool'? Then think back to the days when you self harmed and see if there is anything in common between back then and now. If you are able to isolate a thought a feeling a situation etc which occured back then and now you may find it helpful to either put measures in place to reduce feeling unsafe again or talk to someone about thoughts or feelings and see if you can work through them.
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
