I am mad at you. I do think you're a horrible, nasty person...sometimes. You make me want to scream. You're the trigger at the moment. I don't know if I love you...if I need you...if you're an obsession...if you're a fear. I don't know anymore.
I can't do this....
i'm not better I'm barely holding on
and "you look like you feel better"
yeah no, that's just the meds that they have me on, they numb everything so that I can't feel
truth is
I feel so god damn empty it's not funny.
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I've cried for 2 days about what he told me in my dream the other night. But it scares me that in my dream it didn't affect me as badly as it would in real life. It makes me wonder if I don't care enough?
Planning diets, calorie plans etc is the only thing that distracts me from how painful the depression is at the moment. Nothing distracts me except indulging in my "eating disorder". And playing with my Mum and my dinosaur like a 3 year old child. Things that alleviate the pain for a while are hurting myself, smoking, drinking, sometimes music, sometimes running. But only those 2 things can stop me thinking.
I want to leave and I know that I will do everything in my power to do so. And afterwards... well... I am too scared to say what will happen then but it will be oh so sweet.
sometimes being strong means not holding back the tears but letting them fall
~˙·٠•●♥Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥●•٠·˙~
my fur baby girls are my life <3
r.i.p my beautiful girl jackie. i will love you always no matter what - 6/5/10
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
