I got a cancellation through. So I went, oh fool me!
I saw a dietician, originally I asked to be referred to a dietician to get some advice on what I as an individual need, to hopefully 'legalise' food amounts in my head and get a hand on my increasingly bulimic tendencies...
She gave me weight loss leaflets, with a huge BMI chart on the back. And a portion allowance thing she filled in for me, which included 1-2 portions of protein, 5 portions of fruit and veg [2 table spoons per portion, apparently], and 3-6 portions of starchy foods/carbs.
She told me one portion of starchy/carbs was a slice of bread or 3 table spoons of cereal and to have one portion for breakfast with fruit. She also told me I could have one portion of high sugar or high fat food a day and suggested that could be a ****ing teaspoon of jam [or one biscuit]!
When I told her I don't have milk with cereal, she said don't worry, your on supplements for calcium.
And when I asked about binging, she said to me 'well I have given you my advice, if you want to binge, that's up to you' I felt so idk, like as if she was saying, god, look, its THIS easy, just ****ing do it!
She told me she hadn't got any ED specialisms and was a bit lost as to what to tell me [oh it doesn't show at all!] and that I should see the ED team or BEAT if I still needed help... Which is an impossibility right now, the ED team don't take on cases like mine [I have been with them before, I know that as almost fact, and besides it would involve trudging through secondary services to get a referral anyway] and BEAT don't have any services near me.
I um, well I am looking at the leaflets and she's only really 'legalised' loosing weight in my head. I mean, surely a person wouldn't sustain on THAT?!
She basically told me not to worry about dairy products and idk, what she would expect me to eat has to be way below the recommended calorie blah blah for an adult woman.
I am triggered. Yes. Part of me is laughing like crazy cos I wouldn't feed my own child this little. But, she's a professional, where does this leave me? I'm frightened. A bit bemused, but more thrown [across the room and out of a glass window style].
That is bad. Ugh. I hate it when people experience things like this. You do not need to be eating like that. It will more than likely make you binge if you don't eat enough. That's common sense. Personally I'd just set you're own meal plan. Okay, thats difficult when you don't know whats 'normal'....so that's pretty crappy advice...ha! I'm typing as I think. Anywayss, Maybe go to someone else. And maybe not a dietician (SP?). I think if you're struggling with bulimic tendencies you should see someone ED specialsed. you need to get the help now before it gets out of control..
More than anything I can't believe she said 'well I have given you my advice, if you want to binge, that's up to you'. Yes, because of course we have control over binging....ugh. Some people have no clue.
Okay, Here is my idea of a healthy plan.
Breakfast; cereal, drink, toast (fruit if you eat that at b'fast)
Lunch; Sandwich with something e.g. snack bar and fruit. Or like pasta or salad is good.
Dinner; Normal dinner...meat potato veg for example. Or curry. Or spagetti bolonase (Sp) Ha, that's crap examples but you know what I mean!!
Than snacks...well that's up to whether you're hungry or not. If you get hungry mid morning/afternoon/evening then fruit/snack bar/something like that.
I think if you plan out eat day's main meals, it makes things easier.
I hope something out of that has helped.....Plus also distractions when you feel the need to binge. There a thing on binging in one of the stickys on this forum I think.
Oh and chuck those leaflets out, they'll only do more harm than good. I'm sure you DO NOT need them.
Chin up though, some people really have no clue so its best to ignore them!
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain
Hey,
I'm so sorry to hear of this crap experience.
one recommendation that has helped/is helping me is a book called 'Nancy Clark's sports nutrition guidebook'. It's actually taught me a lot about how our bodies work, how different foods work in the body and there are good chapters on eating problems and bingeing too. Worth a try- it's available on amazon.
Hope you can manage to put this horrible appointment behind you.
I really must be huge.
I've snapped.
She took one look at me and thought I looked massive.
She weighed me at the end.
I must look like I need to loose weight.
Where does that leave me?
You are NOT huge lovely. I promise that. I've seen you before, and you're tiny. Don't let what some idiot said ruin all the hard work you've put into trying to recover.
I really have nothing useful to say, but please, please don't do anything that will hurt yourself.
i don't really have anything helpful to say. Sorry. But just wanted to check if you're ok.
This sounds like a really difficult situation. i would try to ignore the meeting. It's such a shame when that's obviously something that was meant to help.
Is there anyone you could talk to about it?
And i am very sure that you are not huge. You are beautiful and loved and strong. Please try and stay safe. Hugs if they are wanted.
Since I saw her my eating has been absolutely terrible. I've been binging non stop and I was supposed to eat less according to her. I cant do it. I don't know which way is up and which is down.
I am too **** scared to stand on the scales but I'm sure I have gained something.
The thing is, I cant forget what that woman said, I have forgotten her name, and maybe even what she looks like exactly, but I will never forget what she said to me and the leaflets she handed me. Im not sure how Im going to get past this.
She may as well have kicked me in the stomach and told me I was going to die I was that fat.
God that's absolutely terrible.......& also not true!
Some professionals get everything completely wrong,, which is what's happened sweetie,, she's obviously uneducated in eating disorders and just doesn't have the appropriate advice.
You could see a different dietician next week and get completely different advice.
Please,, try not to feel upset about it all,, I mean I know that's hard and I certainly would be upset,, but it's really not worth it.
You are not huge.
xxx
Well content loves the silence, It thrives in the dark, With fine winding tendrils,That strangle the heart,
They say that promises sweeten the blow, But I don't need them, No, I don't need them...
Do you know if perhaps she hands out the same set of leaflets to everyone she sees? It's possible.
Also, she clearly felt under-qualified to comment on binging, I've often found that when I've asked a professional about something that they aren't knowledgeable about they get uppity. I think it's because they don't want to show up as not knowing anything helpful to say. It puts their nose out of joint, so to speak.
Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do you want?
I am sorry to read this. What a fool that woman is. I mean, yes, it is true she can't keep you from binging, but restricting yourself so severely is just...not the right way to go. When I was in the hospital as a teenager, everyone else was telling me how unhealthy my small meals, etc. were, and how badly my body was reacting. Then in waltzed the dietician to tell me that, according to my age and height, I was technically three pounds overweight. People are stupid sometimes. There are so many good people out there, but how can you tell the difference? I don't know. Love to you.
Omg that woman is horrid! I know how you feel, i once went to my gp to talk about my diet and (i am a little overweight now, and have binging, restricting habbits, and was underweight before) i told her how many calories i was eating a day (which was pretty low considering how much gym i was doing then. She just looked at me and said "just eat less" I was like...REALLY??
don't listen to her, listen to your body. Eat when you feel hungry and if you have an urge to binge, try distract yourself. I know it's much easier said than done though, i am in teh same boat.
What do you think the bingeing is related to? How are you doing today?
I'm really mad actually that things like this happen, and I really feel for you. But you need to get her out of your head however possible (easier said than done, yep).
Is there anything you can fight her with? Not like a sword. :P But (and this may be totally wrong/weird) can you try use your sense of logic and reason.. The bit that is angry with her.. Is there anyone you can talk to to get some emotional back-up?
Thinking of you. xx
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Wind in the Willows.
I know part of the binging is from days of restricting, after a few days I guess I end up over eating for a day or so. Sometimes its out of poor food choices. If I have something unhealthy or 'bad' I think, well I've ****ed up once/twice, what's a third forth or fifth time going to matter your fat, you can only become a fatter shade of fat.
Part of me has a sweet tooth and I just, idk, I end up eating when I am in the kitchen. If I could stop having a kitchen and a load of food in the house. I would. I really would, if I lived alone it'd be so much easier.
I need to keep angry, but I've already slipped into a sad/defenseless mode where it just, simply, hurts and makes me hate myself even more.
I am trying to build the courage to email someone for support but it would cost me big time to actually see them, and I really cant afford it. I need to have a think about things I guess.
Thankyou for all the replies and support. It is much appreciated. xxxx
Second, I have seen you literally, I have sat next to you for gods sake and you are skinny. Geez, I was envious, lol.
Third, Im glad that you dont live alone and that you have to have food in the house. Im pretty crap this evening at phrasing my advice appropriately so I will stop now and just say, text me, e-mail me, phone me or facebook me if you need/want to. I will always be here for you
*hugs*
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
