Struggling, nowhere to hide...

[Life and Lies]

I've been in University one week, and after being SH free for a year im suddenly struggling. At home, I had thrown away all my tools, and had set patterns for avoiding bad patches. I was doing well.

But as part of my course I had to buy a dissection kit, and i have to keep it in my room. Its so triggering to have it sat on my desk, so the last two nights I have given it to one of my flatmates to look after. But when I got in tonight everyone was in bed and now I'm just sat here looking at it.

I just can't deal with this tonight, I'm not feeling well, I've not had a great day and now all these old feelings are resurfacing. I can't talk to my tutors about leaving the kit elsewhere until monday.

what do I do?

[PassedExpectations]

maybe get it out of your sight, so it'd be a bit easier to get distracted....

also if you need it for dissections, maybe you can remind yourself that its touched dead things that might have lots of chemicals to preserve them, or have been in places that you don't really want to have mixed with you, even if you've cleaned it...