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who the f cares what the title is just read the damn thing
i have to get my driving record for my drug eval tues but i cant go today cuz the cats have vet appointment cant go saturday cuz alex is bussy then theyre closed sun and mon fuck me what am i supposed to do. i dont even know when i went to bed last thing i knoe i was talking to simon and re-reading the log i wasnt making sense, i cant even figure out what i was trying to say. and i didnt even get IN bed i just slept on it, got no idea how long for but last chat i sent was 2pm and woke at 8 ish and my photobucket got deleted and i dunno why, i wasnt vuolating copyright and there was no nudity, just my pics of me and pics of some wounds, thw wound pics i found had accidentally only been copied from external drive to laptop so i still have those but the others i deleted after i uploaded cuz the whole point was so ii could shuffle things arounf ang dive alex his drive back and i told alex im losing my mind and he said he isnt gonna help me cuz i have to take care of myself but wtf man not even a kind word or attempt to calm me down thats just not right im totally breaking and he walks around like everything is normal GAAAAHHHH awake 30 or so hours, sleep 2, awake another 40 or so, get in 5 this has got to stop and wth with my sedatives i should be out like a light!
also last night i shredded up a bit of my leg and it was bandaged all nice and taken care of but when i woke up it was off and i dont remember taking it off at all. and now that i see how little damage i did i wanna do waaaay more right now cuz im so fucking LOST and confused about wtf happened, why did i black out while sober?
ugh, sorry that was so long but im losing it i cant deal at all i just wanna disappear, and i want my damn pics back cuz there were some awesome ones of me in dragon dress before my arm was all fucked and now its gone gone gone gone ffffuuuuuuuccccckkkk
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