Really scared

[Ster]

Ok, basically my dad lost his job and is now doing some other job where he doesn't get paid as much. We don't have much money any more, but my mom is spending a lot of money on my new therapist since she isn't covered by insurance and on DBT for my cutting, but I'm really scared that it's not going to work. I honestly don't think I'm going to get better, I don't see anything that could replace cutting, cutting is the only thing that works, the only thing I want to do, and I don't know if I'll let myself give anything else a try. Help :/

[Lluviazul]

:( im so sorry to hear that! therapy might seem pointless at first, but you just gotta accept the help youre getting and try to get better instead of saying "it wont work". maybe you say that because deep down you feel bad that the little money your dad is earning is being spent on you and you dont think you deserve it? if so, youre wrong. they only want the best for you, theyre your parents!
sorry, i know my post is silly, but i hope it helps... somehow :/ *hugs*

[Ster]

I really am so confused now, I just don't know what to do. I feel my life if just meaningless so why make it worse for others?

[Ster]

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Originally Posted by paintingflowerswhite

You arnt making it worse for others at all.
perhaps ask yourself some questions such as:

Do i want therapy?
Am i ready for recovery?
What could i gain/benefit from this?
How do i feel about having therapy?

Maybe that could help clear your mind a little x

I want therapy, I'm not sure if I'm ready for recovery, I could gain alternative ways to cutting and have a better life, and I like having therapy as a support system, to have someone to talk to. It's just I don't know or think I'm ready. I'm scared to tell my parents this because I'm like suicidal as of now and they'll think I'll never get better and I won't know what else to do if I don't get better besides cut.