I've absolutely lost all control.
I'm trying to see the positive side of things. I really am. But I think the world in conspiring against me.
As I'm finally gathering the pieces back together, my dad has a heart attack. He's fine, but for a while, I didn't know how he was, because I'm so far away at school.
Then I find out, this morning my mom drove her car into a tree. As far as I know she's fine.
But with these events come more expenses. We still owe hundreds of thousands of dollars worth of hospital bills. Now, we need a new car, pay for two ambulances, and more hospital bills.
I'm so completely overwhelmed. I've dealt the way that's familiar to me, with SI. Right now, everything seems completely hopeless. I'm rambling, but I don't know what else to do. My friends don't want to listen. They think I make this stuff up for attention. I'm scared. I'm terrified actually. And alone.
I just need someone to tell me things turn around eventually. These past few years have been too much for me to handle. Please. Just someone, tell me that things won't always be awful.
I personally have a background of
many days on end of
confusion, understimulation, overstimulation, and uncomfortableness
with the world around me.
*Hugs* Thank goodness your parents are alright, because I think that's the most important thing really. All those bills and stuff must be so stressful, but things always turn around. It['s clockwork really. Either events work out, or people start to change their outlook.
Sometimes in times like these you need to try and focus on the little things..because everything else is so overwhelming. You're strong, and things will always work out for the strong that perservere.
And ramble all you like here, we're hear to listen. :)
Things will be ok eventually.
The most important thing is that you parents are ok, try to remember this.
You can always talk with us, we are here to listen and support you.
*hugs*
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
Things will eventually work out. Be thankful that both of your parents are okay.
I think it's great that you are trying to look at the positive side of things, that in itself is a positive step forward.
The way I'd deal with this situation would be to take one day at a time and trying not to think about everything at once because you will stress your self out and will become overwhelemed with everything. Just take one step at a time and concentrate on enjoying life and look at the little things in life. Like I said, be thankful that both of your parents are okay.
I believe that you ARE a strong person and you will make it through this tough time and I also believe you will come out a stronger person than you are now. You have to remember that everything will work out in the end, it will just take some time. So just take each day as it comes and focus on enjoying life.
Take Care.
DILLIGAF
"it’s when you’re acting selflessly, that you are at your bravest"
- Four.
♥
I know I sound like a terrible person, but I'm mad at my mom.
She's upset that I'm not concerned.
The story goes, she purposely did it because she found out my dad was still having an affair.
When I tried to kill myself, she was anything but supportive. And now she expects that of me? I don't think that's fair at all.
I don't get along with my mom a lot of the time. She's a very dramatic person. And if the attention's not on her, she freaks out and somehow makes it about her.
She's telling me how 'disfigured' she is now. I talked to my dad, and my sister, and they say she's not at all. It just makes me so angry, I can't even describe it.
I personally have a background of
many days on end of
confusion, understimulation, overstimulation, and uncomfortableness
with the world around me.
