Mood Disorder Thread - Page 15

Kija · 19-09-2010, 11:13 PM

glad your feeling allright kit kat, whos kathryn? i'm allright. stressing alot. and i stopped taking my meds a while ago. wich is probably a really bad thing now things have got stressfull. getting more and more up and down, and feeling generally weird. maybe its time to start them up again. i just cant seem to stay on them for any length of time. wich i know is bad in the long run. *sigh*
sorry mini rant there.

Kitkat :) · 19-09-2010, 11:19 PM

Oh sorry Ayka switched out then, but it's Kitkat talking now, that my nickname as my name is Kathryn.

It's okay, feel free to rant. I'm a bit stressed out too, I have to close a police case about my abuse that was opened because my old therapist told them about it ): I really don't want to have to talk about it and live through it again.

Kija · 19-09-2010, 11:22 PM

oh god. thats horrible. your old therapist told them? are they allowed to do that? x

Kitkat :) · 19-09-2010, 11:25 PM

I have no idea. She said she had to tell social services cos my cousin's in a foster home, but I didn't know it would go as far as the Metropolitan police... I didn't want it to, but now I have to close the case. I don't want to talk to them. But I have to :/

Kija · 19-09-2010, 11:32 PM

well i hope it goes well. look after yourself through it all.

Kitkat :) · 19-09-2010, 11:58 PM

Thanks, I'm going to call them tomorrow so I can get an appointment with them sorted as soon as possible, I really just want to get it out the way. I'll try (:

How are you?

Kija · 20-09-2010, 09:32 AM

i'm allright. stressed but probably no where near as stressed as you! Its all my own doing. saying yes to things that i'm not sure are any good for me!

one_step_closer · 20-09-2010, 05:25 PM

Can you take back some of the things that you've said yes to?

My mood is quite low, mainly because i've found out that i've been diagnosed with BPD and I can't get my head around it.

Kija · 20-09-2010, 06:22 PM

unfortunately i cant say no to anything now, its too late, and i'd leave someone really really in the sh*t. hey ho. shall see how it all goes.
BPD, sorry i get confused with all the shortening things, is that bipolar disorder?

one_step_closer · 20-09-2010, 07:14 PM

Borderline Personality Disorder.

Kija · 20-09-2010, 07:22 PM

oh sorry. i always get BPD and BP mixed up ones bipolar and ones borderline. sorry.
when did you get diagnosed?

Kitkat :) · 20-09-2010, 08:15 PM

Hope you're okay One Step Closer, it can be a little bit disorientating when you get diagnosed with something new.

Hope you're not as stressed Kija.

As for me, I'm feeling kinda low. I text my friend on Friday asking her if anything was happening on Saturday and she said that she had loads of coursework to do. I'm talking to my other friend now and she told me that she went out with my other friend on Saturday night.

She should've just said if she doesn't want me there, instead of lying about it.

redhead22 · 21-09-2010, 04:37 AM

I'm sorry about everything with your friends Kitkat...

I know how you feel one step closer. I was just diagnosed with bipolar disorder..I wasn't really expecting that...right at a stressful point too...I don't like it...

Kitkat :) · 23-09-2010, 08:59 PM

I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder two months ago. It's been a struggle to accept it, but when I've felt and acted the way I have I can finally understand why I have.

My friend is still being an absolute b*tch. The only way I'm finding out if anything is happening tomorrow is being told by my other friend.I feel so bloody unwanted.

DrWatson · 07-10-2010, 07:54 PM

I'm so glad I found this thread. I've been diagnosed with severe depression and it's really getting me down (no pun intended). I just hate labels. I'm expected to act in a particular way all the time. Even when the pain becomes too much I get people telling me 'your life is great - why end it?'. I just can't deal with the normal things that life throws at me. My doctor says she won't put me on meds because I'm young (14). But I think if someone doesn't help me soon, I'm going to end up...I don't know where:( I think being diagnosed with a mental illness has shattered my self esteem:(

Kitkat :) · 07-10-2010, 10:20 PM

Welcome Scarlet Ladder.

I know how you feel, I can't handle everyday life situations either... Most people don't understand that, and are purely materialistic. "Why are you depressed, you've got a good life." They don't know the half of it.

They wouldn't put me on meds either, which leaves me with mental health conditions and no form of help... I want to get some but I don't like the GP in my doctors surgery.

DrWatson · 08-10-2010, 09:42 PM

urgh I know what you mean - I know they don't work for some people, but I feel like something to make me feel less like I want to die would help:( But I can't get a prescription without my parents knowing...

Kitkat :) · 08-10-2010, 09:53 PM

That's a shame :/ I don't know if I can...

My Mum got put on Citalopram. And then she says to me that I'm noy depressed and needs AD's but its okay for her to have them? WTF.

DrWatson · 08-10-2010, 09:58 PM

That sucks...I'm supposed to be getting counselling and CBT for my SI but they're taking their time about it>:( plus I think telling my doctor about the fact I want to commit suicide might make them hurry up a bit - but then my doctor has to break patient confidentiality if she deems me 'a risk to my own health'. So I can't tell her...

Kitkat :) · 08-10-2010, 10:00 PM

I'm sorry to hear that ): CBT wasn't particularly helpful for me but I hope it'll work out better for you, that was just my own experience.