Self Esteem...

[PrincessTitch]

My self esteem is making me push everyone away :/
I'm pushing my OH away by not having any confidence and constantly asking him 'why are you with me?' 'Would you love me more if I was skinnier and prettier' and being constantly paranoid.
I'm shitty about myself and angry at myself and therefore I'm lashing out on my family.
Mum found out last night when I broke down that I started starving myself and her, my step-dad and my OH (they got him a taxi to ours) sat me down and wouldn't let me leave the room til I ate :/
I'm just horrible and fat and ugly.
I can't stand the sight of myself.
I don't see the point in tarting myself up sometimes because whats the point, I'd still look like a right munter.
:'(

[Opus.]

You're not any of those things you said about yourself, you're really pretty!

I do the same thing - constantly ask him why he loves me, why he wants to be with me, so I understand. For me, it's that I need the reassurance - is it like that for you? Have you spoken to him about this? It might help him understand, it might help..

[ElectricSparks]

Alright, so say that you really are ugly, that you're overweight. How, in any way, does that mean you don't deserve what you have? That you don't deserve to be loved? When you see someone who is overweight or ugly do you think any differently of them? Do you think they don't deserve to be loved? If not then why, if you were ugly or overweight (which you most definitely aren't) would you believe that about yourself?

No matter what size someone wears and what they look like, they still deserve to be loved and cared about. You are beautiful, and clearly the only one who honestly believes differently is yourself. You need to realize that regardless of what you look like, you deserve to be loved by the people around you, and by yourself.

[prettiestmess]

you are worth just as much as anyone on this earth. you're no use to anyone if you hate yourself - have courage lovely.

[PrincessTitch]

Thanks everyone, and no I don't think overweight people and ugly people deserve anyless then say supermodels or anything.
It's just I don't see why someone who's gorgeous like him, is with someone like me :/
And yeah it is like reassurance for me.
x

[Opus.]

Seriously, sit him down and explain to him why you're always doing this. Tell him that you aren't doubting his love, or think he's likely to run off or anything, just that you have self-esteem issues, and that you just need reassurance from him, because he's the person who's opinion you care about. Or something along those lines. You know? It'll help him understand.
Good Luck x

[makedamnsure]

I dont have anything useful to say except
1) you are pretty
2) I feel exactly the same.

Take care