He would go into work late and the neighbours looked after the children when they got back from school untill he got home from work. But we cannot depend on them again.
"I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same too so we are not that different you and I.
You'll be surprised to know how far you can go from the point where you thought it was the end.
Left_in_the_centre - idk i just feel like im being pushed into this little box that defines me and my problems and i feel like i dont fit it... i mean when i look at the symptoms i do think that some of the symptoms fit but then again i feel that a lot of them dont so... yeah i dont know
I Love You Because The Expression On Your Face Doesn't Change When You Look At My Scars..
torn - i know its difficult the way i deal with it is , ok so they say i have this, its jsut a title for their forms, it doesnt change who i am or what i am.. just means i can start getting some help. maybe that kinda outlook will help.
tomorrow - its more important that you get the help you need sweet, my guess is if your struggling to the point of your psych stepping in maybe your kids are getting the best you can offer right now anyway ? have you discussed it with your husband ?
me - sorry im popping in and out internet is being dodgey still. last night was a bad night but i didnt si, and today's been ok but im hitting a down.. gonan try and relax then pull myself out of it with x factor and friends later - still no update on my therapy timetable situation
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
I am disgusting. I cut a couple of days ago in the back of a police van. I knew it was a possibility I would be found by them but still went out. My therapist said that he will not work with me if I act out and look what I have done without us even discussing anything yet. I need to get a grip and start behaving responsibly. I'm sorry, I don't know why I am behaving so irresponsibly.
I'm hoing X-Factor will cheer me up too
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
Inner distress causes us to do strange, unhelpful things, sometimes.
Maybe part of you is sabotaging your opportunity to work with the therapist because you're worried about the horrible feelings it will bring up that you have been trying to avoid for so long?
I don't know. There is a part of me who knows I am still clearly academically capable etc to do my work but then this other side that prevents me and that part is so much stronger. It's pathetic.
I don't know entirely what happened either b/c they said they were going to take me home and when it became obvious that they weren't I panicked and cut but I volunteered to go to A&E and then again, I don't know what happened but ended up restrained and fighting against them and into the 136 suite. I don't know what I did to cause them to be so aggresive with them when I had agreed to go with them. Bruised all over.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
Just shooting in the dark here... but re: academic work, are you scared of failing and ending up ill again? I think my fear of failing and ending up at square one prevents me from properly trying. *hugs*, i'm sorry you ended up in the 136 suite, those places aren't fun.
I mean, not necessarily academic work but legal work or similar professional work. I know that I am skilled at it but at the same time I can barely get on a train, certainly not during rush hour, to get there. I hate answering the phone, etc. Confidence has gone to zilch.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
i just got diagnosed with BPD less than a month ago while i was in a psych hospital. i'm doing good about taking my meds but i'm still trying to wrap my head around this and figure it. any help is much appreciated
carrie - hope your feeling a bit better now sweet, junk food and take out is allowed, just not for every meal, everyday . so dont beat yourself up over it.
signingchild - my psych was similarly helpful when i was diagnosed, people can recover and it depends on the serverity and stuff, so its not like a death sentance like your gonna have this forever. its jsut about saying ok well this is whats going on at the minute, im gonan get some help for it.
me - soo my screwed up head has decided to tell me i have a crush on my friends new housemate... not very practical. im freaking out about fitting work, timetable, lgbt commitments and friends into the up and coming week.
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
