im ok mostly, lots of downs but coping ok, dbt hasnt started just yet, had a coulpe of assessment meetings,
rehearsals have started, mustnt let my confidence get in the way of a good performance (so worried about pulling this off) 3 rehearsals a week but ordered my undies for it so fingers crossed :/
taking the dog to the gardens this afternoon to meet my friend
I'm feeling a bit weird; just a question, does anyone else have real trouble interpreting how people are behaving when you get things like texts? A friend texts me but I'm always convinced that they're cross/angry with me, or don't like me because of how I read messages, but then other people might think they're normal?
That makes very little sense.
A friend wants me to come out this afternoon, and I'm not sure I feel up to it.
And I can't find the cat. Which makes me cry; she's an indoor cat.
So yes, everything making me cry today, not entirely sure why. Trying not to sh as a response though
Whatever Happened to our Inner Glow?
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I've always been really paranoid that people hate me; when people are annoyed or upset I'm always sure I caused it.
Mood just took a mega turn for the worse, so am holed up on sofa.
How you doing after cpn Cheryl? Also don't get down about teaching, if you love it that's all that matters; it doesn't matter how slowly or quickly you do your course. Can you write everything down that you need to do/think about/decide and see where to go from there?
Whatever Happened to our Inner Glow?
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ive been diagnosed with BPD but i dont really think i have it.. i just feel that nowa days if you don fit into specific catagory they just shove BPD on you.. anyone else feel like this?? x
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hey ya im about. not sure for how long,my internet is dodgey tonight.
today's been a good day for a change. because i asked the sun to not elt work be busy and it wasnt so it was relazing -ish- which was good. :)
hows are the rest of you .
torn- thats the view a lot of people - therapist and family - took with me, when i was diagnosed with bpd that it wasnt jsut a glorified box for not fitting anything else, and i know theres discussion amoung some professionals on whether bpd is a real thing or not.. but for the most part it is. why dont you feel like you have it sweet?
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
Not been here for a long time but feeling in the need for support. Psychiatrist wants me to go into residential care but children need me. I'd love to try it out but option not viable. Need a way out.
"I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same too so we are not that different you and I.
You'll be surprised to know how far you can go from the point where you thought it was the end.
Do you think you can give your children what they need at the moment? Do you think you would be better able to after residential support? I remember you from a while back. I know those questions seem a little blunt but I think they are valid nevertheless. I would have much preferred my Mother to go residential and get proper help, even if it meant only having visits every couple of weeks, to having her be like she was and dealing with her breaking down and being randomly admitted to psych units. Kids pick up on much more than you think, they are much more perceptive than they are given credit for. Please think about the help you are being offered. Maybe residential is the way out, not just for you but for your kids as well.
It's a case of who will look after them my husband would have to give up work to look after them and \i cannot ask him to do that. My psych did mention not wanting to section me again. I hope she does not.
"I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same too so we are not that different you and I.
You'll be surprised to know how far you can go from the point where you thought it was the end.
If she does then who would look after your children? Are they old enough to take on some responsibility for themselves? Do you have family or friends who could help out, picking them up from school etc? If you did go in could your husband change his hours in anyway?
Do you think he would do that if you DID ask him? Would you go in voluntarily before your psych sectioned you?
My family live over 100 miles away and I'm no good at making friends, I've been here 10 years and have no friends. There is no hope of him changing his hours. We are separated and he has the children as social sevices would not look favourably on me looking after them full time with my mental health probs.
"I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same too so we are not that different you and I.
You'll be surprised to know how far you can go from the point where you thought it was the end.
Sorry if I am being dense here but if he has the children anyway....how would you getting residential treatment make that much of a significant difference to their care?
I go to his in the morning to take the children to school and am there when they finish school. If I'm not there he would not be able to do his full days work.
"I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same too so we are not that different you and I.
You'll be surprised to know how far you can go from the point where you thought it was the end.
