Hey Katie *huggle* only seen your post since I finished my fag. Not sure what time zone you're in, but perhaps have an early night if you're so tired?
*huggles Mark* Glad that you can still get online when you're at your parents. We'll all try and stay safe - you try and stay safe too in return please!
Right time for me to put my selfishness aside and pack up ludwig and his tasty wires so that Reginald can come out and play. TTFN!
"All battles in life serve to teach us something, even the battles we lose"
"There are moments in life when the only possible option is to lose control"
's heather :P haha.
and its only 2:30pm here lol
byeee
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
Aww I didn't get back till after Hayley wandered off?
Yep it's Crimson... Long story but yeah I changed my user name. :)
Have fun with Reggie.
I was lei'd in vets! ***** Proud Plumeria Sister!
"He said look inside your heart/ And you'll see stars/ Falling stars/ Look, deep into my eyes/ Don't look down/ Or you'll fall, he said/ Here, the sky goes on forever"
*Hugs Lindsay* I's sorry you cant be bothered with life , I know that feeling all too well :S I hope you feel better in yourself soon and I also hope you had a good time with your brother in Edinburgh.
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
Cuddles all. Hmm at my second job now, and I stupidly said yes to working 6pm to 6 am. Really wish I didn't as I really want to kill someoe allready, and self harm there's no were to run. Curls up and cries.
So today sucked, doctor doubled my meds, so I'm on highest dose, feel so trippy. Ate too much too so I'm all bloated. Ultrasound shows nothing so I have to go see a specialist in about 6 weeks time, on a waiting list. Meh. *cuddles all*
Meds increased so I feel pretty dopey again, takes about a week to settle. My fiance is a little annoyed that he can't just talk about anything or watch anything with me because a lot of things I can't deal with mentally right now.
So instead of talking this out yet again I'm going to bed. Night wardies *hugs*
Cuddles all. Hmm this night sucks. Want to harm badly and can't, I'm sitting on the floor at work cup of coffee next to me, trying to work out floor plans that make no sence. And this needs to be done tonight, with my manger yelling at me to get a move on. Fu@k I just want to curl up and hide.
Hayley - *glomps* Good to see you. I hope that Reggie doesn't eat all of your walls and that Ludwig and his wires remain safe.
Still going on the antibiotic (obviously). Didn't sleep much last night and had to have ventolin through my spacer last night. My housemate could hear me breathing and I kept having coughing fits. Hopefully this chest infection will clear with the 5 days on the prednisone (steroid - on day 2) and the full course of antibiotics. *sigh*
So.damn.over.it.all.
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
I'm gonna try to do individuals here, but if I left you out... tell me. And I'll respond, I promise :)
*hugs Mark* I'm with you on the hating waiting... but, I'd rather be the one waiting for someone than having someone wait for me... that make sense? :S
*hugs April* Sorry you've fallen back into a depression *gives soft plushie*
*hugs Felicia* hope you managed to keep your sanity with that hectic day :)
*hugs Jill* Sometimes you need to let go of that fake smile... but I know what you mean. Hope you're staying safe <3
*hugs Crimson*
*hugs Hayley*
*hugs Laura*
*hugs Kahlia* Don't give up :) We're all here to support you.
*hugs Lindsay* Stay safe hun, PM me if you need to talk <3
*hugs Hels* How are you doing??? Is that sickness all gone yet? :)
*hugs Sarah*
*hugs Reaper*
*hugs Heather*
Sorry they were so crap... but I tried =/
The following content has been hidden - Reason : Stupid rambles.
To those who asked - I don't know... the meds are just really messing with my head. For starters, I keep hearing random noises... like my name being called, or just stuff that nobody else is hearing. I've just stopped mentioning it to people because they look at me like I'm insane. And plus when I take the 2 antipsychotics in the morning like I'm prescribed, they make me feel really drowsy and just overall "out of it" for the next few hours. It's like I have no emotion during that time, which just depresses/angers me and I want to SI to prove to myself I'm still here, still living. And then my mind is still rattled over how I've never gotten stitches for my SI, or never been hospitalized, which is a GOOD thing, right? But I can't convince myself of that, and it just keeps going through my mind that
it's not serious enough, that right now I'm not worthy of getting help... and it only makes me want to SI worse to prove them all wrong. It's really messed up.
Sorry for rambling... probably should have put that in my r/v. I'll just stick it in a hide box instead.
If someone ever says to you "You need to stop thinking so much," call them ignorant in your head and keep thinking deeper. It is this mentality that breeds stupidity and sheeple. Your mind is the most important tool you have. If you stop using it, it will atrophy.
If someone ever says to you "You need to stop thinking so much," call them ignorant in your head and keep thinking deeper. It is this mentality that breeds stupidity and sheeple. Your mind is the most important tool you have. If you stop using it, it will atrophy.
Cuddles all.Hmm last night sucked so much, so many things going wrong. Erm eneed up harming myself, really glad I had a dark t shirt on and no bey saw. Heading home now to bed, so tired.
