Tell Your Secrets! And Be Honest!!

[xlaurenx]

I'm scared how bad things will become if i get depressed again.

If i do go back to self harm am so scared of how bad and out control it will get.

[patodemuerte90]

I am a secret. No one knows me at all. Not even my family. I have no friends. Too many secrets.

[MunchBox]

Sometimes I want the pain so I can use the painkillers I stole from my mom. I know I've been taking too many.

[*fallenangel*]

I thought I was free. I thought it was over.
But the depressions back again. Its worse having been free of it for so long, having run round in the sand, danced in the sea, drank tea at the top of mountains, been so light and free of the depression for the last few months. It being back is harder than ever. I hate that getting out of bed is so hard again. That smiles are false. Laughter doesnt seem real. I want to feel light again, free of the weights of depression. I cant believe its back.

[_plastic]

i'm really struggling.

[-Shae-Lynn*]

You've just given me another reason not to eat. Thanks, mom!!

[EvilAngel]

I'm sorry you think I'm mental.

[*fallenangel*]

Ive lost who I am. I start thinking maybe Im meant to settle down with a boy and have kiddies, then I watch a programme with Sue Perkins on, a sucessful confident lesbian I fancy the pants off, and I think no Im meant to spend my life with someone like that, because no man makes me feel the way that looking at an amazing woman like that makes me feel.
I start thinking maybe I cant leave behind all the people I love in the UK, then I get a gorgeous message from a friend in Australia and think that I cant leave all the people I love there either.
I think maybe I cannot handle the stress of climbing a career ladder, ive got too many issues,but then someone asks a legal question that I know the answer too and it sparks something inside me.
I think maybe Im over H, but then I enjoy being close to her, I miss her when I dont see her, I still cant handle the idea of her with someone else.
I think K is my best friend,Ive been needing the influence of someone settled and 'normal' in my life, but then I think I was living a 3 hour drive away from her for 4 months and she didnt bother visiting once.
Im entirely lost about who I am. Where Im going. What im doing on this planet.
Im so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so lost.

[MunchBox]

I fucked up again, i'm getting worse, i'm needing it more and more.
This morning I woke up with my bandage on show, I wonder what mother say..
I hate myself so much I just wish I was like everyone else in my life. In a week I will suffer the consequences because of my stupid decisions, its just a matter of time now.

[DestroyMe]

I'm not coping as well as you think...and about what...you already know...but I can't tell you to refresh your memory, it'd make you feel bad.

[DestroyMe]

this isn't fair time can kiss my ass.
I wish I had your lack of apathy
I really do

[Delirium.]

i don't know how to tell him. He has every right to know. But does he need to know, it's been 6 years, and I feel like i should tell him but don't know how and everytime I see him all I want to do is puke.

[DestroyMe]

I. Want. To. Die
if anything else just to get this fucking pain to stop

[DestroyMe]

I'm so scared

[[Pixie]]

im so scared.
ive lost myself somewhere inside this.

[DestroyMe]

every painkiller in the world would not kill this pain
but I can't keep going like this.
I can't stand the feeling of not being able to breathe
or feeling like half of me is missing
or feeling like there's a hole in my chest

but at the same time.
this feeling is home

you say it's wrong to grieve when you're not gone yet...
I'm not grieving over you.

I have a feeling I'll need to go stay in a ward before long...

[lozza]

I promised I wouldnt tell... but I dont know if I can do this anymore and I am not sure if I can keep my promise from yesterday

sorry for saying this
sorry for not doing as you asked

[Rayne]

I was raped and no one knows. I have flashbacks everyday and I am so scared.

[MunchBox]

They talk about their boyfriends non stop, they say its time for me to have one....i'd rather have a girlfriend...

[DestroyMe]

I'm tired of trying......