need some help ..

[danow-91]

Hi
I have not been here for a while.So i'm a little bit nervous to post this.I have been struggeling for a while with my bulimia.But lately i have really lost controle of my ED.During the day i can't seem to find the willpower to eat.I'm so scared to put on weight.I find myself so ugly,so disgusting.By fasting my binges increase.After binging i have this unconrolleble tendency to purge.This causes me to feel evenmore worthless then before.I really want to break this vicious cycle,i dont want to feel like this anymore.I just don't know how kick this.So i was wondering if someone had some experience with this ED and might have some suggestions on how to get rid of thise feelings.Because i really want to feel normal and happy again.And maybe i shouldn't even post this but i'm already this far , so here it goes

[over the rainbow]

hi love.
sorry you are having a tough time,and im afraid i have little advice.
but i just wanted to say im here if you want to chat.
i have anorexia,but i understand that cycle you mentioned.its a hard cycle to break.
do you have any help?
take care and feel free to pm me anytime.
sending loads of hugs.

[Buttons.]

I think you've pinpointed the problem exactly in that the starvation during the day is causing these binges which in turn is causing the feeling of needing to purge. A key aspect to changing this cycle and breaking the habit might be to try and make a healthy meal plan for each day and see if you can stick to it, then your body won't keep going into panicking starvation mode. If you struggle to make a meal plan and stick to it by yourself it might be worth seeing if you can see a dietician.

[Buttercup.]

I wish I had some advice for you, but right now I'm drawing a blank! But I wanted you to know that I have faith in you. You can and WILL beat this. Never give up and be strong. We are here for you!

Jess x

[Ginger Snap]

Hi,

I went through exactly the same feelings when I was struggling with bulimia. I am now on the road to recovery so it is possible to get rid of those feelings. You will feel worse about yourself because bulimia really messes with your hormones and can cause huge mood swings and negative feelings. I also agree with Buttons in that starvation triggers binges and breaking that cycle is really important. I really wish I could change your mind about your negative feelings, but I know from experience that it's difficult.

When I finally decided that enough was enough, I went back to my doctor and was completely honest with her and she was great. Even talking to her about it and making her aware made me feel more hopeful. If you can, try and talk to a doctor about how you're feeling. Have you spoken to anyone about this? I also read a couple of self help books that really put things in perspective for me and helped me, which was surprising as I'm a bit sceptical about them generally.

You can beat this no matter how difficult it seems now, but unfortunately it takes time. Baby steps are best. I really hope you have someone close to you that you can talk to and ask to help you through this.

I don't have access to the internet very often at the moment but if you need any help you can message me and I’ll try to reply as soon as I can.

Take care,


Laura xxx

[MrsPoppy]

I find that starvations cause the binges. The binges cause the laxative abuse or purging. The purging causes starvation. Indeed it is a very viscous circle.

Each time I binge and purge I promise myself I will never do it again. I always find I will do it when I am alone, when my husband is working, when there is nobody there to judge me. I find that trying to keep my mind occupied helps. I'll quite often grab a book or go for a walk. Flick on the Music Channel or just move to a room away from the food temptations.

It really is a tough battle and a fine line. I too wish I could find the balance and just be happy again and not care about food/weight.

We can do this. We just need to be strong. Fight the urge to binge. Fight the urge to restrict. Fight the urge to purge.

We are in control. Our body, our actions, our choice. Stay strong, we will all get there in the long run! xXx