Have you ever had that feeling, the one where you feelyou have to write something down to remind yourself of what someone's said to you. Yesterday my brother called me a bitch, slag and something else but I don't remember what, well I was pissed off (obviously) and after 1 month free from SI, I cut 'BITCH' into my arm, so know I start college on tuesday and I've got no long sleeved tops to wear, I would wear my arm warmers but they don't match with any of my clothes. Luckily, I'm not going on holiday with my mum, dad, brother and neighbours (thank god) so I'm staying with my nan and grandad, and my nan's taking me shopping. I'm also thinking (more than usual) about moving out, I never really thought that much about it before, but after all the arguments with my parents and other people from my family, maybe moving out would be a good idea?
'All this for a damn princess'
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Cant really give any advice on that moving outness.....but, im wierd on the word issue, i do it, but not in a self harmy/relief kinda way, more in a self-hatred kinda way. Not sure if that makes sense, but your definately not alone in that
Biiiig hugs, stay safe xxx
Carly xxx
I tried to be someone else, but nothing seemed to change
I know now this is who I really am inside
[I don't wanna die, but i ain't keen on living either]
i found that when i moved out it made me get along with my parents alot better, and it was a lot better mentally for me, as i wasnt there for all the arguing drinking etc! i cant say anything about the word though, as ive never done anything but straight cuts!
hope this helps a bit x x x x
Sick of Crying,
Tired of Trying
Yeah, im Smiling,
But inside im Dying
Somebody save me, i dont care how you do it, just save me
I have written words before, I'm not sure why - I just needed to be reminded myself of how I felt etc.
I'm sorry your brother called you a bitch. Well done on going a month with harming yourself, a month is a great start and this is just a slip up, you can get back there again. I hope you find something you can wear when you go shopping, the wound will hopefully heal soon and although it might scar you could try using some cocoa butter on it or something similar.
I moved out, or rather got chucked out but when I did I also found that the arguments became less and if I was arguing I could leave the house and have some space so the arguments don't esculate so much.
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