Triggering (SI) - Falling apart again, would appreciate any support *trigger warning* - Page 2

long road · 17-08-2010, 11:11 PM

no worries
keep safe x

Winchester Angel · 17-08-2010, 11:12 PM

im trying, I'm going to email the support people here. Hopefully it won't be too much of a long wait.

long road · 17-08-2010, 11:19 PM

Trying is the first step to suceeding or something cheesy like that.
At times like this I try to hang onto my friend's favourite quote 'And this too shall pass'
It might be really bad now but if you get through it won't be like that forever.
Im only young (17) so i doubt i'd be much help but my pm box is open should you need it x

Winchester Angel · 18-08-2010, 02:20 PM

Can't cope at all my skin is screaming out to me for me to si, I just want to give in I know I'm not in control right now but i need to si, I'm finding it so hard to breathe without it. my boyfriend is going out of town on Friday night, at the moment its just a massive self harming opportunity. I really don't know what to do anymore.

PalomaStarr · 18-08-2010, 02:30 PM

Hang in there!!!! Is there somewhere you can go Friday night to be safe?
You can always PM me and I will help best I can

Winchester Angel · 18-08-2010, 02:41 PM

I was going to stay over a friends house but I wouldn't be able to get online and right now not having ryl seems so so so scary to me. I feel like at the moment this is the only place I can say what I really feel.

PalomaStarr · 18-08-2010, 02:49 PM

Even so being there might keep you safe... Just think about it

long road · 18-08-2010, 10:52 PM

probs best if you are with someone.
As wonderful as RYL and the people on it are. Being with a person makes it harder to give in.
Best wishes whatever you decide.
Do your best to saty strong and keep safe i'll thonk of you friday night x

Winchester Angel · 19-08-2010, 09:40 AM

This has taken over my life. All I can think about is harming. I hate this. It's like my life is all about the time I'm harming or if I'm not harming I'm planning the next time I can. I've lost the strength to fight this. It's bigger than me and I can't breathe without it.

long road · 19-08-2010, 10:36 PM

aww love. i don't know what to say.
But be careful sometimes when im on the verge of SI if im not careful spending to much time on RYL can trigger me into doing it. but maybe thats just me.
Punch a pillow to help release some of the tension. try some of the alternatives like elastic bands or the 5 minutes method or drawing on yourself instead of injuring.
stress ballls are good, I sometimes manage to squeese them to death instead of SIing.
Just trying to help if i can Jen x

Winchester Angel · 19-08-2010, 11:41 PM

Thanks Jen,

I appreciate your help :)
I'm just trying to survive best I can at the moment.

Dianne
xx

Winchester Angel · 25-08-2010, 06:59 PM

my boyfriend found out about my si and is being so nonchalant about it. I cant control anything anymore. On the plus side a lady phoned about counselling to say she is sending me a letter with the next available appointment on it. The not so plus side is I'm terrified this isn't ever going to be ok ever.