I was going through some issues with my mom's ex -bf from 4 years ago (I've posted a thread about this in general advice if you could go and help me out? ><), and I had a relapse after being SI free for almost THREE years! I don't know how I feel about this or what to do... I'm scared I'll go back to fully SI-ing... The temptation is so strong, help!
So complicated,
Filled with so much hatred, Such a tired game
It's enough, I've done all I could think of, Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than f*cking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're f*cking perfect to me <3
Oh, honey. I know it's horrible to slip up, but they really do happen to everyone.
You've done so well - three years is incredible, it really is. All you can really do now, is concentrate on that, and move on - slip ups happen and that's okay. Recovery isn't an overnight success, and slip ups are part that process. Concentrate on how well you've been doing, and you can do it again.
Hope you're okay
- Tre xx
You are a wonderful creation.
You know more than you think you know, just as you know less than you want to know.
noooo! Come on, you lasted 3 YEARS! To me that is amazing! It shows how strong you are. You fought the urge that long. You now know what you can do. You know you can beat it. Yes you had a relapse but you have a choice let it consume your life or mark it down as a mistake. Think about people it would upset or hurt,family and friends - resist for them! Or you say you had issues with this guy? Don't let him win by breaking down, if you wanna sort it out you gotta continue t be strong. If for nothing else, at least do it for defiance to him.
Stay strong and safe!!
I'll leave you some little smilies to cheer you up, they amuse me anyway
Hey, thanks for the replies, but honestly I just feel so depressed and I can feel myself falling back into a giant empty black hole again. Sometimes I'm just so tired of fighting, so tired of putting my best foot forward. I just want to stop and let the monsters take over...
So complicated,
Filled with so much hatred, Such a tired game
It's enough, I've done all I could think of, Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than f*cking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're f*cking perfect to me <3
i just relapsed after two years so i know how you feel its very confussing and im trying to fight it all over again which just sucks! pm me if you need to
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I know this is a post that is a month old but i am hoping that you have picked the pieces up and are not as depressed. Thank you so much for posting this because as of late i have been feeling alone in the whole i am tired of fighting this and want the monsters take over. Thank you so much for showing that we are not alone in this. And three years is such an amazing accomplishment and even though there was a flub and relapse you now know you can make it that far again and even further. That is something you can hold onto when/if the urge strikes again. Good luck and take care
*Live learn just breathe*
"We are the music makers and we are the dreamers of dreams"- Willy Wonka (Gene Wilder)
Thanks you guys for all your support, and for those that have relapsed after a while like me, I hope you guys can keep going too! I am realizing that this is another bump in the road to recovery, and it's a larger bump than what i'm used to, but I hope I can get through it. One thing that always keeps me from SIing is the scars. I have scars already, and I like that they're there, I wouldn't want them gone or removed, but at the same time I really don't want more either, nor the pressure of hiding new ones, etc. I've become used to wearing what I want without worrying about my arms, and I'd hate to get back to long sleeves in hot weather again. Anyways, thanks again for all the support, feel free to pm me anytime if you need to talk :)
So complicated,
Filled with so much hatred, Such a tired game
It's enough, I've done all I could think of, Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than f*cking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're f*cking perfect to me <3
You are more then welcome hun. I know one thing that helped me to get over a rough patch of wanting to cut was a picture i had taken of my last si session. It also opened the door to remembering i have no clue half the times why i did it meaning i did not remember the reason of what triggered me. Maybe this could be of some help. I am also glad that you see this is just a flub. Good luck and take care and of course much hugs.
*Live learn just breathe*
"We are the music makers and we are the dreamers of dreams"- Willy Wonka (Gene Wilder)
I know it may seem like it's not worth it anymore, but you can get those 3 years back, and more. Don't give up and think that you can't do it, because you can. Just keep pushing.
Thanks you guys for all your support, and for those that have relapsed after a while like me, I hope you guys can keep going too! I am realizing that this is another bump in the road to recovery, and it's a larger bump than what i'm used to, but I hope I can get through it.
That really is a great attitude. I know it must seem like you have to keep fighting all the time and you're back to square one but in reality that is far from being th case. You must have learned so much in your recovery journey so far, and these are all things you can put into practise now. Finding ways to deal with your feelings that are kinder to yourself and forgiving yourself are just two more ways of being that you can learn and put in your armoury and I'm really glad you're starting to do that!
Good luck!
Kiran
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