So I haven't been on here in a while. I've gone a month with out SI. I've went with out for all the right reasons. My therapist and I agreed it was time for me to stop seeing her.
That was almost a week ago. I've got a horrible foggy buzz in my head. I'm fighting off crying... I'm feeling alone. It's like... the second I stopped seeing her, the world and people I relied on got their own problems and now I'm alone. I stared at my blade for a long time last night. I didn't do it only because I didn't have anything to clean it. Sadly, when I start to think about it, I start to plot and then I go into autopilot. I have a bit of peroxide in my room. I'm scared I wont make it...
Why did everyone have to get hit with something at the same time....
