Hi All,
Haven't been around for a while. Nothing against any of you but when I'm doing well I tend to stay away so as to avoid being triggered.
Bit like my relationship with God actually, I only seem to call on Him when I hit a bad patch.
Right now I'm fighting, SI free for 6 months now. Am triggered and want to cut but am doing my best to resist. I have a vague idea why but I don't at present know who to talk to about it. People at church are really caring but I never seem to find answers when I seek their help.
Maybe I'm looking in the wrong place.
Anyway, your encouragement would be appreciated.
Liz
I first suffered with SI some years ago, and hadn't then found God. I'm currently experiencing a relapse, and the prescence of God in my life is without doubt a huge comfort and help. And I strongly believe that SI is not a sin.
"I know that God won't give me anything I can't handle. I just wish he didn't trust me so much!"
Hey guys. I'm in serious need right now, of prayer mostly.
I spent this summer as a missionary in Mexico, and God told me I needed to stop taking my depression meds. So I did, and while my brain went insane and I was in a really bad place mentally, I was surrounded by people who cared. I'm home right now for a semester before I move down there to be a missionary full time, and I'm struggling really bad.
I have no one here. No one at all. And everybody from this summer has gone home and are dealing with their own stuff, so whenever I try to get a hold of them they're busy and can't help. I am lonely beyond all belief, and the cutting I thought I'd beaten this summer is back and worse than before. And I'm even MORE suicidal than I was.
So I just need prayer really badly. And someone to talk to.
I kind of feel like I've been screaming for help and no one cares, because every time I've asked anyone for help no one has said anything. It's a really sad thing when you ask for help on a self injurers website and you still get ignored, but that's happened so much to me the last couple weeks.
So if you could pray that God would send me someone soon, and that I'd get control of this, I'd appreciate it.
I consider that our present suffering is not worth considering with the glory that will be reveled in us.
Squiggles-If you ever need to talk to someone, my PM box is always open!!! It can be hard to find someone to talk to...
lolmanduh-I'm sorry you're feeling so alone right now... Like I said to Squiggles, my PM box is always open if you need to talk...
You will definetely have to tell me more about your missionary trip!!! I've always wanted to be a missionary, but I'm too scared to do it... lol
I will pray for you...
Happiness is like a Butterfly: The more you pursue it, the more it will elude you. But if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder...
"The best thing to hold onto in life is each other."
I'm so sorry to hear about your difficulties now you are back home. It must be hard being a missionary, but you have Christian support around. At home, support is different, and even after a short break there is an element of culture shock.
Are you sure that the Lord didn't intend coming off your meds for a while only? I'm sure he would not mind your going back to them while at home. It would be good to take the time at home to see why you get SH urges and to work on that. Remember, we are here with you and for you.
Feeling strong urges today. My pain has been really bad. I'm having a few animal problems - one had surgery today. I should be looking forward to my trip to Oberammergau etc. but I'm really worried about how I'll cope, as far as mobility.
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
Hey, I have just recently started trusting Jesus in my life and holding on to his promises. Though I am going through alot of crap right now I will always have him and his plans for me.
asc-I know how hard it is to deal with animal problems... Quite a few years ago, my dog got ran over by a car... She had to have a few different surgeries... She ended up staying alive, but with some health issues... Then she started having seizures so we had to put him down... Horrible!!! Marale of the story is... I know what you're going through...If you'd like I could send up some prayers for you and your animals???
xXHAILSTORMXx-GOod for you!!! Having God in your life is a great comfort!!! I wish you all the best!!!
@Aura The fact you posted that song made me cry. I JUST got Matthew 10:31 tattooed on my foot a month ago, because that chapter is all about persecution, and then there's that amazing verse about how I'm worth more than many sparrows. Buh, that made me bawl.
I consider that our present suffering is not worth considering with the glory that will be reveled in us.
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