Long story short, I've been off RYL for a little over a year now. For years I've been struggling with cutting, which I'm proud to say I've been able to kick. I found other outlets to deal with my emotions.
Fast forward to now, and I'm completely a wreck again. The issue now: weight.
I know I'm not skinny. But I also know I'm not morbidly obese. I'm just plain old fat. I've tried to lose weight. I'm very active. I eat incredibly healthy.
I just haven't been getting the results I wanted. So, about 2 weeks ago, I took a drastic step, and stopped eating altogether. This, in addition to exercise, did work. I started to lose the weight.
I went to the doctor for my annual physical and basically, I was told I have to eat 3 meals a day (healthy foods). Which, I already knew, and had been doing most of the summer.
My blood test came back, and my doctor told me I was consuming too many calories. Which I couldn't believe. This whole mess led to the not eating ordeal.
I'm stuck in a rut, and don't know what to do. I'm tired of being the ugly fat girl, but I don't know what else I can do about it. My mom's awful, and always makes it a point to make fun of how I look. ("maybe you should skip food today" "you can't be exercising. not with the way you look" or, my favorite "i don't know how one of my girls can be so beautiful, and the other so ugly and huge")
I'm scared, ashamed and just feel like crying all the time.
All I want in the world is to be beautiful. Why is it so difficult?
Well done for beating SI hunni...oh and welcome back :)
Gosh your mum is really cruel she shouldn't be saying that what the hell?! if that you in the avatar then you are actually stunning - your eyes are so pretty may be ur mum is being jealous?!
How would the blood test reveal how many calories the person is consuming i have never heard of this before...!
If you really need to lose weight like if your overweight, then the best way is to continue what you used to do, eating healthy and being active, and if it didn't work then i think it's a good idea to see a dr about it then may be he can give you suggestions on what to do or suggest a particular meal plan.But, what you are doing now is actually will make you put on more weight on the long run, yes you might lose a bit now but later on your body would stop losing weight and would gain more weight than you lost, not to mention how dangerous this is hunni, poeple die from this, you need to take care of yourself okay?
Forget about your mum and focus on your health, you can do this xo
A little angel fell into my arms at the 7th of december 2010
As for the blood test, I was confused too. I got tested to see if something was up with my thyroid. They called me with the results, saying that the thyroid was fine, but my T3 was elevated. This, according to the idiot woman I spoke with on the phone, means I'm eating too many calories a day.
Obviously, I was beside myself, upset when I heard that. I had been eating one meal a day, and that was too much? I was confused.
I know eating healthy/exercising is the "right" thing to do, but I've been doing it for months, and haven't seen a change at all. It's the most frustrating thing. I tried to explain it to my doctor, but naturally, she thought I was lying, and trying to make it seem like I don't eat 24/7, or exercise.
I don't live with my mom most of the time, so she also thinks I'm lying. She thinks all I do all day is sit in front of TV eating. Which just isn't true.
I appreciate the reply though. The past few days I've been lower than I've been in awhile, and it's nice to have someone listen to me for a change.
I'm pretty sure the woman you spoke with on the phone was mistaken. High T3 readings can mean a number of things but it doesnt reflect your diet.
If you're on birth control or are pregnant this would have boosted your T3 levels. The fact that your GP didn't call you personally more than likely means they aren't overly concerned with the elevation.
I know you know the "right" thing to do, so telling you to do it probably won't be of much help to you. But eating keeps us alive, so maybe you could try to think of something else to help you control the emotions you are having. Maybe writing or drawing.
Hay, first i agree with plastic your pretty and bluntly your mum is mean and harsh, that comment about you sister is appauling. So put her aside on this topic and ignor her oppinions on you appearance and weight.
So If the healthy diet & exersizing isn't working and your doctor wont listen how about joining a weight watchers type thing, then you can get support along the way with adivce as your doctor seems useless at this point. Just keep trying. I don't know about the blood test i've never heard about how many callories you eat showing in a Blood test....maybe it was actually your sugar level, perhaps you had just had some juice or something else sugery shortly before the test. Anyway one blood test couldn't tell them your usuall state only that, that day (or maybe during the last coupple of days) you had had a fair bit of sugar. Unless youve had several tests and theve been monotoring your blood over a couple weeks, they can see sugar levels in test Maybe fat content but i think actually the term callories is a measurement anyway.
