The only reason am still here is because of you and poppet. I could never leave you, so why do you think am so capable of doing so? I won't and i could never do that!
~I wish I'd met you first..because then, maybe I wouldn't be so nuts with not being able to show affection properly without fear of being broken into pieces.
~I faked it with EVERYONE I've slept with. truth is...I've never had an orgasm...ever.
~ when my bestfriend told me she had feelings for me, I freaked out, because I'd chased her for years, and when she finally stands up and says something we're both married...but the fact that we act like a couple half the time scares me. I don't want to revert back into the horrible person that I was.
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I'm only with you because I know you wouldn't cope without me. I got with you so you could save me, now its my turn to save you. This is what I have to do and as long you never know then I will keep you happy, or try my best.
We've been together almost 9 months but in that time I haven't even felt close to the way I felt after being with my ex for a week. I don't think I love you anymore but I don't want to break your heart but being with you is breaking mine... I'm in love with him, not you.
Sometimes I hate it when you tell me you love me, sometimes I daydream about breaking up with you, sometimes I just wish you would go away and leave me alone, sometimes I want to pull my hand out of yours and get up and walk away from you, sometimes I just can't wait for our dates to end already or for you to go home, sometimes I hate the way you act so much, sometimes you embarass me, and sometimes I avoid you on purpose.
That's sad considering we've been dating for almost 9 months.
"Wish that I could cry,
Fall apon my knees,
Find a way to lie,
About the home I'll never see"
Superman by Five For Fighting
I say I don't want to get worse that I want to get better...but I want to get so bad that it's imparitive that I go to treatment.
because that would mean that I have a problem. and I don't think I do.
I still think about her andit makes me want to kill myself.
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I want an ED so badly, just so I can be thin.
But I know I could never handle starving myself because I will always be a spoilt f*t little freak.
I want to be pretty and skinny and sexy so that I can stop being afraid that you'll leave me for someone better.
I can't stop thinking about how many girls you've ****ed, and it kills me.
It didn't matter in the end how old they had been, or that they were girls,
but only that we had loved them and that they hadn't heard us calling,
still do not hear us calling them from out of those rooms where they went to be alone for all time,
and where we will never find the pieces to put them back together.
I fell for you the moment I met you.
You fell for her because she's been your friend for years.
I can't compete with that, but even though my heart breaks when I talk to you now, I want you to be happy.
And I understand that I can't be that girl.
The moserators have taken the decision to close this thread.
It is too triggering for general support and advice, which is meant to be trigger free, plus, it is very similar to the already existant 'Say here what you can't say to someone / Get something off your chest.' thread in serious discussion.
